The New Girl in Town

Battlefield

It was late after recording for a few hours in the studio.

John and I decided to go out to the park, even though it's dark outside.

We arrived at the park, in disguises, hand in hand, swinging them.

"We haven't been out to a park together for a long time.." John stated.

"Yeah.."

We got to a bench, sitting down close.

I sighed.

"What's up, Lily?" John turned to me.

"I just miss this..." I mumbled.

He sighed, "So do I, love. So do I."

I placed my head on his shoulder.

I whispered, "Why did things turn out like this?"

"I don't know, love.. I wish they hadn't. It would've been you." He whispered back.

I smiled, "Sometimes I wish to be vain and just... Ask you to come back." I admitted.

"I wish you were vain and asked me to come back... I hope Yoko doesn't ask for me back." He admitted.

So do I...

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Finally at home.

I sat there on the couch, tea in my hands, wearing my pajamas.

John walked in, "Are you alright, love?" He kissed my cheek, walking past me.

"Um... Yeah..." I lied.

He sat beside me, "Liar. What's going on?"

I sighed, taking a deep breath.

"John, I need to tell you something. And it's very important."

"Alright.." John hesitated.

"I..." I hesitated.

"I have lung cancer, John. I found out two days ago.." I didn't look at him, I just stared in space.

"W-what?" John whispered.

I nodded, "I-I'm sorry.." Tears started falling.

John started to cry, "W-why?" He whispered.

He held me tightly.

"John, I'm going to be honest.. I might die, and I might live... But no matter what, I love you." I cried.

John's head laid on my shoulder, he sobbed.

I now was holding him, he sobbed, not saying a thing.

"Let me come home, Lily.. L-Let me take care of you.." He sobbed.

I shook my head, "John, darling... You can't. You have a baby, I'll be fine. Just, don't worry."

"How can I not fucking worry, Lily? You.. You have cancer"

I gulped.

"I can do this myself, John. I'll be fine no matter what." I kissed his forehead.

"I love you, John" My voice cracked.

Again, he didn't say anything. He just cried in my arms.

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John and I ended up sleeping that way. Holding each other, falling asleep by our own tears, on the couch.

I woke up, turning beside me, John was still asleep.

I smiled, How cute.

I slowly got up, gently placing him on the couch. Luckily he didn't wake up.

I walked into the room where all my instruments lied.

I sat down on the piano, slowly playing.

It's easy to fall in love

But it's so hard to break somebody's heart

What seemed like a good idea has turned into a battlefield

Once lust has turned to dust and all that's left's held breath

Forgotten who we first met

What seemed like a good idea has turned into a battlefield

We both know it's coming

Does illusion count for something we hide?

The surface tension's gotta break, one drop is all it takes to flood out this lie

You and I

We have to let each other go

We keep holding on but we both know

What seemed like a good idea has turned into a battlefield

Peace will come when one of us puts down the gun

Be strong for both of us

No please, don't run, don't run

Eye to eye, we face our fears unarmed on the battlefield

We seemed like a good idea

We seemed like a good idea

No blood will spill if we both get out now

Still it's hard to put the fire out

What seemed like a good idea has turned into a battlefield

Feelings are shifting like the tide

And I think too much about the future

What seemed like a good idea has turned into a battlefield

We both know it's coming

Does illusion count for something we hide?

The surface tension's gotta break, one drop is all it takes to flood out this lie

You and I

We have to let each other go

We keep holding on but we both know

What seemed like a good idea has turned into a battlefield

Peace will come when one of us puts down the gun

Be strong for both of us

No please, don't run, don't run

Eye to eye, we face our fears unarmed on the battlefield

We seemed like a good idea

We seemed like a good idea

We seemed like a good idea

We seemed like a good idea

"Is that what you're thinking of us?" I jumped to the sound of John's voice.

I stared at him, shocked he was up.

"You think we shouldn't be together anymore?" His voice cracked.

I stood up, "John, you have Yoko and Sean... I love you, I do. But it's immature to keep us going. We can do this... But, I don't think we'll ever be able to really get back together" Tears started to form in my eyes.

"But, Lily-"

"Just stop, John. Stop trying, it's no use." I whispered.

He stared at me.

"You're right...." John softly said.

I looked at him.

"It's no fucking use." He turned around, but looked back at me.

"Just remember, Lily... I'll never stop loving you."

Tears fell, "I'll never stop loving you either"

Never.

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A/N: That was Lea Michele's song "Battlefield"