Taymor
I'm not sure where I was even going. Not home, and definitely not back to Nahmir.
He hates me and my baby.
He acts like he really likes me, then just turns around and says that. He doesn't even want this baby.
I remembered I still had my phone in my pocket. I called Jay.
"Hey TayTay."
"Hi."
"You sound like you been crying. You okay?"
I shook my head no as if he could see me.
"C-Can you pick me up from the hospital?"
"Why? What's wrong?!"
"Nothing...I-I'll tell you when you come. Just pick me up at the park that's next to the hospital."
"Ok, I'm comin'."
I hung up the phone and just felt a wave of tears fall down my face. I couldn't hold it in anymore. My mind just kept going back to the whole argument and what he said to me.
I just kept walking and crying.
Then I started thinking about how he feels. Did he really mean it? Did he not mean it? Thoughts were flying in and out my head as I looked down. It's wrong, but I honestly like him. He makes me feel a type of way when I'm around him. A good type of way.
(I'm just writing this and thinking: WHAT ABOUT JAYYYY??? but then I remembered I'm the author I can do what I want💀💀)
I felt so confident and safe around him. He made me so happy. Until we started arguing then this happened. I just wanna rewind and start over.
"Hey." I heard someone behind me.
I turned around it was Jay standing there with a smile. I hugged him tightly, as if I never wanted to let him go.
Then I just cried. I cried softly as he hugged me back. He didn't ask anything he just rubbed circles on my back.
We stood there for a little while then I pulled away. I stared at his shirt with cloudy vision. "I-I messed up y-your shirt...my bad..."
He shook his head. "It's good. You want me to bring you home-
"No! N-No, bring me back to your place."
He nodded and walked me to his car.
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Jay and I sat on his couch, just talking, since his parents weren't home. He hasn't mention the situation at all, which kinda surprises me.
"Jay...I'm hungry." I told him. "I want some cake."
"Ion got cake- hold up. That's reminds me. It's Nahmir's birthday today. We was gone throw a party for him tonight but we ain't tell him. Aw dang you gone help?"
And just like that, I wasn't back to thinking about him again. His birthday. I messed it up. But hey he messed up my day too. But I still messed it up first. So I started crying again.
"What's wrong?" Jay had a concerned look on his face.
"I m-messed up his b-birthday." I sobbed.
"How? Whatchu' mean?"
"We g-got into an a-argument cause I was
b-being annoying and cause w-we found out I was p-preg- I-I mean playing around with h-his phone..."
Jay looked at me with a confused look. "Okay...I'm sure he don't mind..."
"Y-Yes He do...and now he prolly hate me. I don't wanna see him."
"Come on. What if he ain't really mad? Y'all could make up and be friends again. I think."
I sniffled and shrugged. "Will there be food?"
"Yup."
"O-Okay..."
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