my girl | brendon urie

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it's been six months! and it was finally summer! you know what that means ??

and i guess things are alright. my therapy was going okay. my youtube channel was going great. school was going well. i was over maddie.

but guess what today was? summer in the city! we'd been in london for a day already and loved it. and now today was the big day! me and mariah had a meet up together and i was singing and we had a panel with other girls called sophie, anastasia and saffron. we were buzzed.

i got up and ready into a black and white adidas t shirt, black jeans and my adidas super stars. i did my makeup up (eye liner and mascara).

my parents woke up and got ready to. "guys i'm buzzing! sitc today! ahh!" i said to my vlogging camera. "fan girl" brendon teased me. "suck my ass" i yelled. "let's go see mariah" i went to open the door but i fell. "really lana!" mariah was there. "fuck you"

she was wearing the same as me. except her top had more white than black. her make up was the same to. "they're probably gonna make out so let's go see the others" i said to mariah. "hey!" my parents exclaimed as we left the room.

hayley and the others were ready to. we headed to sitc when josh, zack, brendon and sarah were ready too. our friends had to go to the main entrance as they weren't guests but they didn't mind. we said bye to them and headed inside.

we had to do a bunch of random bullshit. brendon was actually going to perform here so that was great. he had a meetup and a panel on lgbt and respect. josh and sarah didn't want to attract attention so they stayed backstage.

but then it was time!

the panel went so well. and the meet up did too. we met so many lovely people and they were so kind. one girl noticed my scars and said some kind words which made me cry. yep.

but after walking round and having fun and stuff it was time for performing. i was after dodie. i'd met her and she was so lovely. brendon performed too and he was amazing. a few other people did too. i met so many other people. morgz, jake, lewy, jasmine...people are amazing.

and then it was time. i had a panic attack before my performance. brendon and mariah helped me and i cried. i didn't let it bother me though. i wanted to go on. brendon helped me warm up and then i was ready. "good luck bitch" he said. i laughed and hugged him. my friends and family wished my luck as the crowd cheered for me.

i went up and the music started.

"Oh na na na na na na na na
I never really feel a thing
I'm just kinda too frozen
You were the only one
That even kinda came close
I just pinch myself
No longer comatose
I woke up, no luck
I woke up, no luck
And when your stitch comes loose
I wanna sleep on every piece of fuzz
And stuffing that comes out of you, you
I took too many hits off this memory
I need to come down
An-n-n-n-n-n-n-n-nother day goes by
So hold me tight
Hold me tight, or don't
Oh n-n-no, no this isn't how our story ends
So hold me tight
Hold me tight, or don't
Oh na na na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na
Oh na na na na na na na na na na na
I got too high again
Realized I can't not be with you
Or be just your friend
I love you to death
But I just can't, I just can't pretend
We weren't lovers first
Confidants but never friends
Were we ever friends?
But when your stitch comes loose
I wanna sleep on every piece of fuzz
And stuffing that comes out of you, you
I took too many hits off this memory
I need to come down
An-n-n-n-n-n-n-n-nother day goes by
So hold me tight
Hold me tight, or don't
Oh n-n-no, no this isn't how our story ends
So hold me tight
Hold me tight, or don't
Oh na na na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na
Oh na na na na na na na na na na na
Hold me tight, or don't
'Cause I'm past the limits
The distance between us
It sharpens me like a knife
Past the limits
The distance between us
It sharpens me like a knife
An-n-n-n-n-n-n-n-nother day goes by
So hold me tight
Hold me tight, or don't
I'm pretty sure that this isn't how our story ends
So hold me tight
Hold me tight
Hold me tight, or don't
Oh na na na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na
Oh na na na na na na na na na na na"