Johan's P.O.V.
My dear _______, you will not be able to stand by my side. The better tomorrow you badly want to give us doesn't exist. At last, not for me.
You're not lying, though. You deeply believe in what you promised. You truly do.
But the thing is...
you won't want that once you find out the truth.
"I will be with you. I will be your light. Just let...me be there."
I cannot let you. No matter how much there is a part of me that wants to. You have already been involved in this way too much.
My hand subconsciously moved to her soft cheek, gently caressing it with my thumb. She looked so peaceful while sleeping.
How are you able to see beyond the end?
I let out a small sigh, and my gaze moved at the ceiling once again. I felt exhausted but the sleep wasn't coming to me. A bizarre idea came to me out of nowhere but I let my mind wonder in that ludicrous way.
What if we all lived together as a family? _______ and I married together, having a child, _______ reading the stories to them before going to sleep in my arms, laughing and just simply indulging in the small stuff people enjoy in every day life. Anna would with us as well, she would take care of our child as well...She is me, and I am her. My child would be her child too. Dr. Tenma would visit us whenever he was free from saving lives, and then he would let himself indulge in small talk with us with a glass of wine-
I had hard time stopping myself from laughing at those absurd thoughts. That idea was just so grotesque on so many levels.
That's not how this will end.
And me, a father?
I knew how to destroy lives not creating them.
"I promise I will come back to you."
Of course you will come back to me, my precious _______. You will be the one to put end to my life, and fulfil the scenery of doomsday perfectly. I know how to wake up a sleeping monster inside you.
I don't care whether it will be your brother or you who will pull the trigger. I would prefer to be you, though. Some people would think of it as being romantic.
I looked at her sleeping form once again, as I gently moved a strand of her hair behind her ear, looking at her peaceful form.
How will you react once you find out the whole truth? I don't doubt you will look at me the with hate and anger...but misery as well. Will that be enough to utterly brake you?
I am sorry, _______. It was not my intention to do this. You were supposed to be a mere toy to me, and a gift to Dr.Tenma.
None of this was planned at the beginning.
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I was usually the one who woke up before ________ but that morning I found myself alone in the bed, listening to soft humming that was coming from the other room, most probably kitchen. Assuming that I slept in because I fell asleep later, I found myself listening to ______'s voice that was softly humming her brother's favourite song 'Let's stay Together'. I had to admit, that piece of information was hard to obtain but apparently, the good doctor enjoyed music, and his sister was no exception.
