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Chapter IV

Song: Ariana Grande- Breathin

Chapter 4

A m a n d a

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I guess today didn't turn out the way I thought it would; first with my old friends, second the encounter in the cafeteria, and lastly Derek.

"Brenda..." I pause, "Do they know I'm out. That I'm not in the asylum anymore?"

I know the answer, yet I feel the need to hear it out loud. Brenda shakes her head "No, they don't."

I breath in a shaky breath at her response as I run a hand through my hair, "Who's Zoe?"

"You don't remember her?" She looks at me for a second before turning her attention back to the road.

"No am I supposed to?" I ask.

"Well, she's considered herself popular I guess and is a bitch, as you might have noticed; but she wasn't always like that."

"What happened?"

Brenda sighs. "A break up happened, she got hurt and blamed everyone for her misery."

"Who was the guy that broke up with her?"

I notice Brenda tense slightly, her knuckles turning white on the steering wheel. "Jacob did-" My eyes go wide. Jacob? "-they were about to make two years together until... well, you showed up."

I slump back into my seat, staring out the window, my thoughts running wild. I understand we were kids and going into adulthood, which means meeting new people, falling in "love" and just having a good time but the idea of Zoe and Jacob together made me feel uneasy, especially when there's a big chance that I might have ruined their relationship.

"I think she just became obsessed; they did go out during six grade. I don't think it could have been serious." Brenda tries to explain, most likely noticing my unease. "Besides, you were better for him, and everyone could notice how much he cared for you." 

 I remember that; when he would help me out when I first got here in seventh grade, how he would support me on the toughest days without even knowing it; that laugh and smile which would bring joy, and happiness. I know I was young, but I knew for a fact that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him, and when we started to go out he would say the same thing, yet now all of that is gone.  

A future we don't have anymore.

I didn't notice we've arrived home until I hear the car door shut. I step out and join Brenda at the front entrance, and once inside. I set my stuff down and sit on the couch as Brenda does the same, sitting next to me. Both of us stare at the blank TV screen, lost in thought, and suddenly I think of Derek and our interaction. The way his grey eyes were filled with curiosity when he saw me.

"What about Derek?" I ask, wanting to know more.

"What about him?"

"I don't know, you tell me?"

"Well, Derek as you probably can tell is the hot guy, so try not to drool over him," This causes a smile to appear on my lips which quickly falls when she continues. "He and Zoe went out for a month last year, but he broke up with her. Maybe that's why she thinks he belongs to her. I don't know." Great, even this Derek guy went out with her too. "But he's sweet, nice, and... cocky yeah, but he's not the player type, and he was best friends with Jacob since elementary I think, I'm not sure, but then he moved and came back last year."