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•post-infinity war rant•

obvious warning but there will be major spoilers for iw in this post
(and also subtle spoilers for maze runner? i make comparisons..)

i just
i have no words
okay that's a lie.. i have a lot of words
but i cannot physically same them because i'm crying so much.

"steve...?"
SOBBING
HIS LAST WORDS WERE STEVE'S NAME I CAN'T.
THERE IS JUST NO WAY THEY'RE ALL DEAD.
THEY HAVE TO COME BACK SOMEHOW..
PLEASE.
I MEAN THEY LITERALLY KILLED ALL THE NEWER HEROES.
LIKE LITERALLY ALL OF THEM.
EVERYONE THOUGHT IT WOULD BE THE OLDER HEROES THAT WOULD DIE.
BUT NOOOOO
IF CLINT SURVIVED THEN IT'S JUST THE OG AVENGERS LEFT!!! I WAS PREPARING MYSELF FOR THE OPPOSITE BUT AHHSJSJSJA
AND LOKI
THERE'S NO WAY LOKI IS COMING BACK AND IT BREAKS MY HEARTTTT
HEIMDALL TOO
AND GAMORA
AND JUST
hajdkslalakakwkakakalao

STEVE'S FIRST WORDS TO BUCKY (post winter soldier) WERE:
"BUCKY..?"
AND BUCKY'S LAST WORDS TO STEVE WERE
"STEVE?!"
I CANT
I CANNOT
HELP ME PLEASE

STEVE'S HAD TO WATCH BUCKY DIE TWICE
WANDA'S HAD TO WATCH VISION DIE TWICE
ROCKET'S HAD TO WATCH GROOT DIE TWICE

IS MARVEL JUST TRYING TO PHYSICALLY BREAK MY HEART?!

i just

it was so so so sad

like i'm an emotional person i'd say. i cry during the sad parts of movies and books but this is the most i've ever cried during a movie.

i don't think i ever even stopped crying watching it.

I CRIED DURING A COMMERCIAL THAT CAME ON BEFORE.

it was a commercial for an infiniti car, (haha i see what they did there) and they were playing the avengers theme in the background but it was like a piano version with lots of harmonies anD IT MADE ME SOB.

AND THEN I WAS CRYING HYSTERICALLY WHEN LOKI DIED AND I MANAGED TO CALM DOWN A BIT BUT I WAS STILL CRYING FOR LIKE THE ENTIRE MOVIE AND THEN WHEN BUCKY DIED I ABSOLUTELY LOST IT AND LET OUT THE BIGGEST UGLY SOB OF MY LIFE AND THEN WHEN PETER PARKER DIED MY HEART BROKE EVEN MORE AND JUST AHHHG
I WAS SUCH A MESS
MY DAD CALLED ME A BABY BUT I KNOW HE WAS TEARING UP TOO!!

AND THe lAdY sItting next to me was crying and gasping the entire time and my sister told me that person sitting next to her was muttering "sh*t, sh*t, sh*t, sh*t, sh*t" the whole movie, and apparently at the end she said "i really came back from college for this?" and just ahhh this movie bRoKe everyone.
like the whole audience was crying,
all the characters cried,
EVEN THANOS CRIED
UGHHWJWKWL
when bucky came on screen for the first time, my dad looked at me and said "THERE'S YA BOI" and everyone laughed and that just sums up my relationship wITH my fathEr LoL.
and when RED SKULL SHOWED UP THE ENTIRE THEATER JUST GASPED IN UNISON.
i mean red skull's got to play a big part in the next movie.
like ending cap's story line, the same way it started- by fighting red skull?? that would be heartbreaking but amazing??!

just ahdjskakakal

AND WHEN THANOS SNAPPED HIS FINGERS THE WHOLE THEATER WHEN DEAD SILENT AND THEN STARTED SOBBING AS A WHOLE IT WAS TERRIFYINGLY AMAZING AND DEVASTATING

i was preparing myself for tony and steve's death bUt litERALLY nEaRLy EVERYONE BuT THEM diED.

MY BUCKY BABY😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

AND LOKIIII😭😭😭😭

AND PETERRRRRRR DKLSFJAL;SDKFJ

OH ALSO
there weRE lIke barely any steve and bucky conversations!!! THEY BETTER SAVE BUCKY IN THE NEXT MOVIE AND GIVE ME SOME STUCKY SH*T.

i'm going to write a whole chapter on predictions for the next movie but here's one that absolutely devastates me:
what if steve has to trade his life to the soul stone in order for bucky to come back?? THAT WOULD KILL ME

IM DEAD ALREADY BUT IT WOULD KILL ME MORE.

and all the people begging for someone to kill them?!! LIkE ThaT REMINDED ME OF NEWT AND IT JUST MADE MY HEART BREAK EVEN MORE.

AND PETER PARKER'S DEATH WAS LIKE THE TENTH DOCTOR'S JUST SHSJSK

I JUST CANNOT BELIEVE THIS MOVIE.

IT WAS SO GREAT AND I LOVED IT SO MUCH BUT I HATE IT WITH ALL MY BEING AS WELL.

why were there no sherlock jokes hmm??

not even a joke about there being two peters??!

ugh

hausas

THEY

KILLED

JAMES

BUCHANAN

BARNES

AND

T'CHALLA

AND

PETER PARKER

AND

LOKI

AND

SO

MANY

MORE

IT'S

NOT

FAIR.

JUST UGGHSHAJAKALQLWLQLALALALALAJWKWSKSJNDND

I HAVE SO MUCH MORE TO SAY BUT I CAN'T WRITE IT OUT WITHOUT CRYING.

I'M SORRY YOU HAD TO SUFFER THROUGH READING THIS BUT I NEEDED TO RANT

HAVE A NICE NIGHT OR DAY ILY YOU ALL