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•butterfly friend•

hi sweeties!
i'm back from vacation!

so, it didn't exactly go that well haha. um my dad was in a bad mood the entire time- and those of you that know my dad know that when he's in a bad mood he turns into like a completely different person. like usually he's bucky- but then he becomes the winter soldier ahaha. but i'm still grateful we went on vacation at all i guess.

so on friday, we got there around lunchtime, and i was still feeling really really sick. so i stayed in the hotel room for like three hours while the rest of my family went out and did stuff. also they were going to like this beach and honestly i can't handle being in front of that many people, especially in a bathing suit. so even if i wasn't sick i still probably would have stayed in hahaha.

then we went to dinner, and the most embarrassing thing happened! so i live in the south, and pretty much everyone here eats meat. like barely any of the restaurants serve vegan foods, which is why i never like to eat out. i mean even the salads have cheese or meat on them! anyway, so my parents were deciding where to go and they asked me what i wanted to eat. so i was just like, "i'll just have a lettuce wrap when we get back to the hotel room," because my mom had brought some vegetables from home. so i told them i wasn't going to eat at the restaurant, so they could pick wherever. anywayyy. so we get to this place, and we're seated down by the hostess. as the waitress comes to take our orders, my dad goes "sorry, i think we're actually going to go someplace else, there's nothing my daughter will eat here," and he points at me. and the waitress looks so heartbroken because we were literally the only customers in that restaurant. and then we all have to walkout in front of everyone, and i know it doesn't seem that embarrassing, but it was completely mortifying. i still have no idea why my dad did it, i'm pretty sure he just didn't like the options on the menu, and blamed it on me because he was already mad at me.

so then we drive to this other restaurant, and i'm just sitting there awkwardly. the waiter comes to our table, and he takes my mom and sister's drink order, and he's being really polite and calls them 'ma'am' and 'ladies' and stuff. so then he gets to me and says something like, 'what can i get ya sir?' and my mom and sister are both trying not to laugh and the guy look me down and goes "ah i'm sorry, ma'am, i'm so sorry," and he's kind of laughing, but he also kind of looks like he's going to cry. and the second he left, my mom, sister, and i all just burst out laughing. and i feel really bad, because i know he could hear us and it always feel so awful to hear people laughing at you, but we just couldn't help it. 

so then on saturday, we went to like this really pretty indoor butterfly garden. and i found this little butterfly just sitting on this low leaf. so i let them climb onto my finger and it was the cutest thing. then it let me put it on my sister's finger, and then her shoulder, and then my shoulder!? they were literally then friendliest butterfly i've ever seen. i named them carlota.