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21.

"thanks for the semi-party hoseok!" Namjoon yelled and walked away with the others.

"well then thank you for also cleaning I guess!" he chuckled.

closing the door, he leaned on it and slid down feeling exhausted and worn out till' he saw Yoongi looking at him while sitting on the couch.

"you fine?" Hoseok sat next to him.

he seemed deep in his thoughts and he nodded while pursing his lips, like he wanted to say something.

"what is it? you can tell me anything baby"

there it is, hoseok and his ways of making yoongi's heart flutter just wants to make yoongi tell him how precious he is for the world, he wants to cuddle hoseok and whisper sweet things into his ear.

"i-i think it's about time I tell you.."

he gulped not wanting to scare Hoseok away with the words he's about to let go.

"you don't have to tell me really if you aren't ready" he squeezed yoongi's hands telling him he'll always be by his side.

"n-no i'm ready to tell you why I became a selective mute." he forced a smile and took a deep breath.

Flashback》
"you need to stop!"

"well if you didn't cheat on me!"

"how many times do I have to tell you she was just a friend?!"

"yeah of fucking course she was just a friend- friends don't fucking kiss and strip each other!"

two adults were cussing and fighting with each other, he saw it with his two eyes how his mother had been abused and accused of several things only his father was capable of.

he felt alone and trapped in the middle of his parents as they fought every day and every night, he was getting sick of it until his mom woke him up in the middle of the night, smiling like nothing chaotic was happening.

"hey sugarbun" she had a smile on but yoongi could clearly see through it.

"what's happening mom?" he rubbed his eyes as he saw her eyes getting watery.

"w-we're gonna have to leave papa behind because he's hurting us too much"

"o-oh, whatever makes you happy mom" he clutched onto her.

he also loved his father but if this makes his mom happier and this sets them free, then he just has to go with it, he doesn't want to leave anyone behind but he has to side with his mom this time, he knows how much she's been through and how she's much more stronger than this.

"come on now sugarbun, we have to be quick" she grabbed the bags that were placed in a corner and signaled him to quiet down.

as they exited the room, they could already hear the clinking of glasses and drunken singing by probably his father again.

"shhh" she made him lower down his head and continue going.

when they were near the kitchen, you can hear sobbing suddenly and some roaring, yoongi didn't know how to feel when he didn't know what was happening beyond the walls.

"papa?" he asked which stopped the man from sobbing.

"yoongi! run! now!" his mom yelled and took his hands.

holding the keys in hand, they made a run for it and broke out of the house even though yelling was heard, he still didn't make it hold him back, he kept running and running with his mom's hand interwined with his.

getting in the car and locking it, they dropped the bags and heard a loud banging on then mirror.

"sugarbun don't look" she cooed and took his hand when he couldn't help but stare.

stare into those horrible red worn out eyes that wasn't like his father at all, he was almost crazed and he had this creepy smile all at once and it sent shivers down yoongi's spine as he looked away.

"don't leave me love~" it gave off a creepy vibe how he sang it.

he got in the house without even complaining more, confused- yoongi told his mom to go and she complied without hesitating.

when the house was already far away, they could see him go outside again and bring out a big gun, it was directed at them at first and it made yoongi's heart beat loudly until he saw his dad took one last look and smile.

no no no no.

a loud bang was heard and he could see, with his own two eyes that his dad shot his own self and laid there bloody and dead.

he was horrified and scarred for what he saw yet he saw how broken his mom was with what they just witnessed.

"don't worry s-sugarbun, we'll get through this..."

End of Flashback》

"I got through it but my mom didn't" he choked in a sob and held onto hoseok's arm tighter than before.

"b-but you're with mrs.min right?" hoseok was confused, he had a family- unless.

"they're a relative, my mom right now was my real mom's sister" he explained.

"oh, I don't know what to say.."

chuckling, yoongi kissed hoseok's cheeks and leaned on his shoulder.

"you don't have to say anything, i'm glad you listened"

"I didn't want to talk ever since because- it was all my fault, if I hadn't agreed maybe they still had been together and solved it out, if I hadn't agreed to let her leave me behind maybe she wouldn't have commited suicide, maybe i could've been there comforting her.. I should've shut my damn mouth" he cried lots and looked down.

"look." hoseok held yoongi's chin and made him look up.

"w-what are you saying? it's clearly mine"

looking at the tears rolling down yoongi's cheeks, hoseok kissed them away and held yoongi in his arms as he said words like it's okay and you were strong to keep it together for minutes till he calmed down.

"remember, it wasn't your fault that you couldn't stop it, you were still young by that time and you probably didn't know about anything much at the moment, so you couldn't blame yourself."

"but-"

"no buts. you were strong for keeping it together and I regret not finding you sooner"

"you didn't have to-"

"shh, don't worry, now that i've found you i'll never let you go"

there it is, yoongi's heart beating faster than the usual, it was only hoseok who could do this and for once it felt like he was treasured and he felt like it was where he belonged, right in hoseok's arms.

"thanks for telling me" he kissed the top of yoongi's head.

"i thought you deserved to know"

"i'm not gonna let anyone break you again and that's a promise"