Twins: A different life - Discontinued - Sorry

Ninety-Nine

When Harry woke up he became aware to two things, the first was that he felt lighter, like something that been lifted from his being and it was a relief. The second was someone was sat on the edge of his bed and they were running their hand through his hair, it was a very soothing feeling that Harry enjoyed very much. He cracked an eye open and looked up to see his father sat there, the man looked peaceful as he continued to stroke him.

"Dad?" His voice was rough, and sounded like he hadn't had a drink in a year.

"Good morning, Pup," Sirius greeted, "How are you feeling?"

How was he feeling? Harry wondered, he had thought he knew how he was feeling before, but yesterday proved him wrong. He realised that it was yesterday that had him feeling lighter, it was like he had let go of feelings he didn't even know he held and it was refreshing.

"I feel good," He admitted, "Really good." Sirius breathed in relief.

"I'm glad. You gave Moony and I quite a scare yesterday, Kiddo."

"Sorry," Harry finally sat up and leaned in to the one armed hug he was being offered, "I didn't even realise that I had felt like that."

"Don't apologise, I'm just glad your ok." Sirius told him, "You've had it for so long that it became a part of you, buried in your subconscious and yesterday it just all come out. I'm guessing it was a result of your talk with Lily."

"Yeah, I guess it did." Harry mused, "And yes, I spoke to her yesterday. I managed to get rid of her scars and she thanked me. It seemed like the perfect time for a talk."

"Did you get what you were looking for?" Sirius asked him and Harry thought for moment. He had wanted answers, he had wanted to know why she gave him and what was going on in her head to do such a thing, so yes he did get what he wanted. Was he happy with her reasons? No, no he wasn't. Did he understand why she did it? Yes, but he wasn't happy with it. And he had heard enough to know that she regretted her mistakes, and that she was filled with enough self loathing that he didn't need to hate her. Not that he did hate her, he had come to the conclusion that he didn't back when he first gave her that portkey, but he had, apparently, been holding a lot of resentment against her and that was gone now. He felt at peace.

"Yes," He answered simply, content with the answer and knowing that it was over now. Harry could move on from here without hurt or frustration and he was happy with that.

"So what are you going to do now?"

"I will continue to help her, she will never be my mother, I have uncle Moony for that, although don't tell him that he's motherly, I think he'll take offence." Harry added hastily, and Sirius snickered.

"Yeah, the moon does that to him." He agreed, and Harry shared a grin with his dad.

"She may never be my mother, but that doesn't stop me being friendly with her and I know both you and uncle Moony miss your old friend. I know we'd have to work on it, and I can do that, especially as we both had a mutual hatred of Potter."

"I think the hatred of Potter is a common theme around here, Pup." Sirius pointed out and Harry snorted.

"Yeah, isn't that the truth? Plus I think Narcissa would enjoy having a woman around, that and I think Lily would be saying anyway."

"Yeah, Severus is rather attached." Sirius said and Harry looked at him incredulously.

"Rather attached." He repeated and Sirius grinned, a wry tint to it.

"Ok, he's in love with the woman, has been since school up until fifth year."

"Why she chose Potter over Sev I'll never know." Harry shook his head in confusion. "I think that, with time, I could have a good relationship with her."