Grieving Soul [#Wattys2019 Winner]

Chapter 23

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Chapter 23
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Acceptance.

That's what I've learned two years ago in order to keep my world spnning on the right track. I accepted that the world of others doesn't revolve on the same axis as mine. Well, scientifically, it does. But figuratively, it doesn't.

I thought there will be a drastic change in my life, but to my surprise, there were only a few. Hindi rin ganoon kalaki ang pagbabago dahil natuto akong tanggapin at intindihin ang mga bagay na hindi ko matanggap at maintindihan noon. I admit that I was selfish before when it comes to the people I love dearly, but I realized that I can be selfish and selfless at the same time by letting them go and still loving them as time passes by.

Nakatulong din na kahit may isang umalis ay marami pa ring natira sa tabi ko, lalong-lalo na ang lalaking pinakamamahal ko. They managed to fill the space in my life and keep it going. At masaya ako sa kung paano tumakbo ang aking buhay ngayon. Wala akong nararamdamang kakulangan. Para bang lahat ng kailangan ko ay nasa akin na.

I have my family who gives me guidance and support, my bestfriend who rarely contacts me but he still does (though I certainly understand that he's busy with his Masters and their land in England), and my three-year boyfriend who stayed beside me—loving me more than I could ever imagine.

"Tonight, we will have dinner with Mayor Valiente and his son at their mansion, Iarra. I want you to free your schedule," Mommy told me when we sat down at the dining table to eat breakfast.

Bahagya akong napatigil dahil mayroon kaming dinner mamaya ni Silver. He's working as a professor in BICC and he just got promoted as the department head in CE department, and we already planned to celebrate it tonight.

"Hindi po ba puwedeng bukas na lang?" nagbabakasakali kong tanong kay Mommy.

Mom raised her eyebrows. "Any valid reason for that, Iarra?"

"I already promised Silver that we're gonna eat dinner tonight to celebrate his promotion," I told my Mom.

"For sure, your dinner with him can be rescheduled. The Mayor invited us tonight because it's his only available time. He's a very busy person, Iarra. You can always meet up with that man since he's not that busy in life," Mom reasoned out.

"I know but I already gave him my word—"

"This is for our business, Iarra. Know your priorities!" Tumaas na ang boses ni Mommy kaya naman tinikom ko na ang aking bibig.

Only half of our business was named to me, while the other half was still on my mom's name. Hindi niya pa ako gaanong pinagkakatiwalaan para ako na mag-isa ang magpatakbo ng aming negosyo. Ginagawa ko ang lahat ng magagawa ko para maipakita sa kanya na kaya ko na at hindi na niya kailangan pang mag-alala. Napamahal na ako sa aming negosyo at gustong-gusto kong pamalakaran ito. I didn't treat work like a responsibility, but more like a hobby. Ganoon ko ito kagusto at alam kong mas marami akong mapapatunayan sa halagang akin 'to.

"Sabay na tayo pumunta roon galing sa plantation," sabi ni Mommy at muli siyang sumimsim sa kanyang kape. "This will be very big once we have an agreement with the Valientes, Iarra. If you're really worth to handle our business, prove it to me."

Dahil sabay kaming uuwi ni Mommy mamaya ay hindi ko na ginamit ang aking sasakyan upang sumabay rin sa kanya papasok. Binaba na nila ako sa plantation dahil didiretso pa siya patungong Dahlia at mayroong kukuhanin.

When I was inside the office, I decided to message Silver. Kailangan kong sabihin sa kanya ang mangyayaring dinner mamaya sa mansion ni Mayor Valiente at hindi kami matutuloy ngayong gabi.