Grieving Soul [#Wattys2019 Winner]

Epilogue

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This is the last part of the story. Thank you for giving me another chance to improve by writing Gio and Iarra's story.

Epilogue

I didn't know how long the time had passed since she started crying in my arms. I hoped I could take away the pain that she was feeling with my embrace. Hearing her sobs and seeing the tears falling down her cheeks were all too much for me. Bawat hikbi na naririnig galing sa kanya ay may katumbas na parang punyal na tumatama sa aking puso. Sana ay tumigil na siya sa pag-iyak dahil malapit ko nang hindi kayanin ang bigat na aking nararamdaman.

Kung kaya ko lang maibalik ang buhay ng lalaking minamahal niya ay baka ginawa ko na kahit na panibagong bagyo na naman ng sakit ang sisira sa akin. Wala na akong pakialam kung mawawalan ako ulit ng pag-asa basta ba muli lang siyang sumaya.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit pagdating sa kanya ay hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili ko. It feels like the main purpose of my life is to love her unconditionally even if she wouldn't be able to give it back. Kahit ano'ng gawin ko ay hindi ko magawang kalimutan ang nararamdaman ko para sa kanya. I thought when I left, it would be easy because I was already away from her, but it only made things worse.

"Just one date..."

Geneveive leaned closer to me as she raised her wine glass. I was aware that she was giving me her most enticing look and I admitted to myself that she was beautiful, but I wasn't really interested with her.

"After that one date, if you don't really like me then, fine!" She leaned back again on the chair and crossed her arms. "I'll never bother you again."

I raised my eyebrows while staring at her and sipping on my wine. I couldn't help but to smirk.

The air of this woman amazed me. Her confidence is over the roof, but her pride is even higher than that.

Maybe I could give it a try. Wala namang masama kung susubukan kong lumingon sa iba. The woman I love is probably planning her future now with the man she loves. Hindi puwede manatili akong hindi umuusad sa plano kong pagkalimot. Kasi kahit na lumayo na ako ng distansya sa kanya, ang puso ko ay nanatili pa rin sa kanya. I need to control my heart now and help it find its way back to me so that I can show its way to someone else.

Subukan mo namang sumaya, Gio. Wala namang masama kung susubukan mo.

"Okay..." I lazily drawled and sipped on my wine again.

I saw her almost lost her grip on the wine glass. Her poise and elegance slightly tripped, but she immediately gained it back. She just gave me one smile as a reply to my response and raised her wine glass more.

I just chuckled and clicked my wine glass with hers. Doon lamang lumabas ang kanyang babaeng-babaeng pagtawa. Sa hitsura niya ay parang hindi pa rin siya makapaniwala na pinaunlakan ko siya.

Hindi rin naman nagtagal ay agad ko siyang nabigo. We've been dating for only two weeks, but I was already trying to slip away from her. Hindi ko alam kung matatawa ba ako o maiinis sa sarili ko. I started to feel uncomfortable being with Geneveive when I saw Iarra changed her profile picture. She was looking so beautiful while wearing a floral dress and a flower crown. It was posted with a caption, "Please don't be in love with someone else."

I know it was a lyric of a song that she usually listens to and it might not be for me, but I couldn't help but to feel affected. Para sa umaasa kong puso at isipan ay para sa akin ang mensahe na 'yon. Pakiramdam ko ay senyales na 'yon para tumigil na ako sa kahibangan kong kalimutan siya dahil alam kong hindi naman iyon mangyayari.