moments.

seventeen

kenzie's pov

today i'm hanging out with the orlandos again. yesterday johnny and i kissed -a lot- but i don't know if anything is gonna change between us.

is it bad that i want it to?

"hiii!" lauren squeals as she spots me from across the park. today i'm showing them around my favorite place in LA: crawford park (an: fake location).

"hi!" i smile back, practically leaping into her open arms. but as i'm hugging her all i can do is stare over her shoulder at john. he looks really good today.

"hey, mackenzie." johnny mumbles once lauren and i stop hugging. he looks down at me, because he's that tall, and immediately blushes. cute.

"hi." i smile, and impulsively, i walk over and hug him. he hugs me back, and i bury my head in his chest. shit, i want him to kiss me so bad right now. when we pull away he's still staring into my eyes, and he wants to kiss me too. i can tell. then why won't he just kiss me?

"oh, gross, you too." lauren gags jokingly. "stop staring at each other with those bedroom eyes."

"shut up laur!" i laugh, but inside my heart is pounding from how embarrassing this is. stepping away from johnny, i confront lauren. "besides, you have bedroom eyes for hayden."

at this, lauren blushes, and i laugh. "wait, shit, hayden my best friend?" johnny chokes out in shock. the little liar, he told me he listened to us talking about hayden the other day! i hold back my giggles, but john really does look shocked. he's a good actor, i suppose.

"we used to date, you know that john," lauren starts, glaring at me. "and recently we hooked up at a party! but we don't like each other, definitely not, and kenzie wasn't suppose to tell anyone." lauren accuses.

"oops." i shrug, grabbing her hand. hesitantly, i grab johnny's hand too, something i would've never second guessed before yesterday. everything is so awkward now- are we dating or not?

lauren cracks another joke and we all laugh, falling into our old rhythm- memories and gossip and jokes. that's what our friendship is made of. the day passes by quickly, and three hours later johnny points out that lauren and him have to go meet with their producers- which sounds crazy to say, but it's true.

"byyyeeee kenz." lauren pouts, hugging me and kissing my cheek over dramatically.

"ewwww." i pretend to wipe my cheek in disgust.

"oh, save it." lauren giggles. her eyes flash between me and john. "john, im gonna go to your car. take your time!" she bolts off. bitch. i think, almost laughing.

"bye, kenzie." johnny mumbles softly, looking at me.

"bye john." i stand on my toes to plant a kiss on his lips quickly. now or never, right? johnny gives a smile and puts his hands on my cheeks, kissing me again, slower. this is so addictive. i could literally kiss him all day.

"bye." he repeats with a smile as we end the kiss slowly, yet not long enough for me.

"bye." i whisper, but i cant smile. i'm too confused. if only he could say something right now, if he could just ask me out and make this clearer, or, hell, reject me. just do something to help me understand what we are. i plead mentally to him.

on that note, he turns around and leaves.

short, short, short chapter. this book is speeding by, did i rush into them having some sort of a relationship? tell me honestly so ik what to do for my next book. :)
-ria