Silence

Chapter 17

           I thought about what Stasia told me and if there was someone else. The truth is deep down I wanted to get back with Benyamin.

He and I started texting lately and he told me the reason he cheated was he thought I wouldn't want him anymore.

This Friday was going to be the first football game in a while. I was going to go with my old school friends this time.

Ana would be picking me up along with Sammi and Ella. I had missed them after spending weeks with my new friends. So much has changed for them and I felt bad I wasn't there for them.

"Josie wanna come with us to get highlights tomorrow" Ella asks me.

"My mom said the only thing I could do with my hair is straighten, curl, cut, and grow it out I'm not allowed to color it" I say and they groan and we pull up to the school's parking lot.

"Josie I haven't seen you in forever" my old best friend Aja says and gives me a hug. We used to be great friends in middle school but then she kept going after the guys I liked and got jealous of me.

My old school group was all together and talking while I was awkwardly trying to act like I still went to school with them. A lot of kids grew since eighth grade.

The game began and I was getting caught up with drama that was going on. I told them about the Halloween party and the girl who tried to kill herself.

"That's crazy oh my god is she okay" Sammi asks.

"She's in the hospital now and will probably have to go to rehab or get a therapist if that were me I wouldn't ever want to go back to school" I say and my friend Theo walks up to us.

"Anyone want anything to eat or drink I'm paying" he offers.

"Cheetos, Fries, and Coke A Cola" I say and he laughs and asks around. Before you judge me I forgot to eat dinner and spent all my time getting ready for the game.

"Josie how's Ryan? Ana asks and my eyes widened cause I see him walk in with that Nina girl. She must really hate her life if she was going to risk it.

I got up and I walked to them I then remembered how Benyamin and I were going to talk. Maybe I should give him another chance.

Why is my life so fucking complicated?

           I decided to just sit and eat with Theo. Before you get any ideas he's just a friend and not even my type.

"Josie I should write a book about you that gets turned into a movie" he tells me and I laugh.

"What would you call it" I ask.

"Crazy Bitch" he says and we both laugh.

I look at my phone and see texts from Ryan but I ignore it. It was a little sad that Stasia, Issac, Drew and Dylan were hanging out without me. She texted me asking if I wanted to ditch the game with them but I told her no.

Now I was reconsidering it cause I haven't seen Benyamin all night. I was on the other school's side so my friends from my school were on the other side. I did want to know how Dylan was doing we haven't talked since Halloween.

Dale was at the game talking to one of the teachers. I would ask him but we all know how that would go down.

Nina is obviously trying to make a move on Ryan but I wasn't going to let her.

I walked to my school's side and decided to take matters into my hands.

"Ryan I don't have plans for the weekend want to hang out just you and me" I say without any thought.

"Well I'm going to my grandparents tomorrow but I'm free Sunday" he says and I nod and look at Nina.

I know I was being really bitchy but I don't want to be the girl who doesn't see the person in front of me.

           Even though I still need to talk to Benyamin I was happy. Nothing and nobody or anything will ruin this moment.

I spoke too soon I watched as Benyamin and Aja were kissing.