Silence

Chapter 19

Today was Sunday which meant Ryan and I were going to hang out.

Yesterday I spent all day watching Netflix and did my homework for the weekend. I told my friends I was sick but really it was cause I've missed my bed.

I needed to find something nice to wear and something comfortable. I had to lie to my mom and tell her I was going to Issac's house for a project and that I could walk there.

She knew Issasc was gay so she didn't worry or assume anything.

I decided to wear a red long sleeve with my black skinny jeans. I then needed to find shoes so I texted Davina. She told me I should wear like either sandals or flats.

I decided to wear sandals and straighten my hair.

The walk to Ryan's house was short and by the looks of it his parents weren't home. Maybe I should tell him I'm sick and run back home.

But I needed to be chill and give him a chance. I walked up to his front door and rang the doorbell.

He opened it wearing a soccer t shirt and sweatpants.

"Hey" he say.

"Hey" I say back and he smiles and walks me inside and we sit on his couch.

We just both sit having no idea what to do or say.

"Want anything to drink I got soda and water?" He offers.

I want to tell him I wanted a big ass can of Sprite but I didn't want him to think I'm fat.

"Water please" I say and he nods and goes into the kitchen. I then get up and look around at his family photos. There was a cute picture of him as a kid wearing a a Batman costume.

In most of the pictures it was him and his family smiling but as he got older his smile faded.

"Here you go" he says walking into the room and hands me my water.

"Thanks" I say and take a sip and then a smile appears on his face.

"Wanna go swimming?" He asked and I pointed to my clothes and I didn't want my hair to go natural.

"My mom's got bathing suits in her closet I'll find you one" he says and runs off without thought.

I then sat down and checked my phone. I had no text messages or notifications which kind of made me upset. But before I knew it Ryan came back with a bathing suit and he was wearing only swim trunks.

He leads me to a pool bathroom and I changed into surprisingly very comfortable bathing suit. I found a hairband and put my hair up in a bun.

I walked out and Ryan's face lit up when he saw me.

"What is it bad" I say and he shakes his head.

"It's amazing I mean you look great" he manages to say before I push him in the pool.

I then jump forgetting about my hair and then he and I play fight.

Then he gets his speaker and we listen to some music.

"Do you have plans for Thanksgiving break?" He asks me.

"I was going to have dinner with my family and how was visiting your grandparents" I ask him.

"Well my parents were being so fucking fake they were like Ryan does this and that and we love him to death. But they're not even here for me most of the times" he says and then gets out of the pool.

He goes inside and comes back with two cans of beer.

"To our fucked up lives" he says and opens the can and begins to drink and then looks at me.

"Drink up" he tells me but I shake my head.

"No thanks"

"More for me" he says and takes my can. This wasn't going to be good my gut told me but I ignored it.

"I'll get us towels or we could go to the hot tub" he says and now we're in the hot tub.

"Hey I'm sorry about that I'm really happy you're here I really like you" he tells me then he kisses me.

Our third kiss and this time it was different. He took my hair out of my bun and then he went to get towels.

Now I'm on his bed kissing him what the fuck did I get myself into.