Dylan O'brien Imagines

Dylan// close as strangers

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Six weeks since I've been away
And now you're sayin' everything has changed
And I'm afraid that I might be losing you

I've been gone filming the Death cure for six weeks and y/n is not taking it well. I can tell she's trying to be strong, but she's just not used to it. Neither of us are. We're used to being glued at the hip and not we're apart from eachother. Usually I'd be able to come visit her or she would be able to come stay with me but between filming and press tour I wouldn't be able to get away long enough to see her and she's deathly afraid of airplanes.

We were talking on the phone last night and she said 4 little words to me that not only flipped my world but scared the shit out of me. She said "Dylan, everything has changed"

And every night that we spend alone
It kills me thinking of you on your own
And I wish I was back home next to you

Y/n gets nightmares, I know she doesn't sleep when I'm gone. I hate going to bed, I find my self often reaching to the other side looking for her but my hand never seems to find the one it's looking for. 3 weeks ago I got a call at 3pm, it was 3 am her time. But all I was able to hear was the sound of her sobbing, after a few minutes she was finally able to speak to me.

She broke down and told me that she hadn't been able to sleep since I left, and she knew it was my job butbshe missed me. And the bed felt empty without me. Thomas came over to me after I hung up with her that night; I guess he had saw the tears running down my face.

Oh, everyday
You feel a little bit further away
And I don't know what to say

Moving into the 3rd month things got worse, y/n got distant. I knew it wasn't because she didn't want to talk to me; it was because talking to me was just as hard as it was for me to talk to her. It was wishing for something you could never have, at least not at the moment.

Are we wasting time
Talking on a broken line?
Telling you I haven't seen your face in ages

I freaked out today, someone asked me what color her eyes were. I didn't remember. How could I not remember what color her eyes were? They used to be the first thing I saw every morning when I woke up and the last thing i gazed into before I fell asleep. I could stare at them for hours and never grow tired. How could I forget....

I feel like we're as close as strangers

Moving into the fourth month, we don't talk for two weeks...

Won't give up
Even though it hurts so much

I can't give up on this, I love her. I can't let a bump in the road set us wrong. I won't let it destroy our realationship

Late night calls and another text
Is this as good as we're gonna get?
Another timezone taking me away from you

After our brief not talking period for two weeks we tried our hardest, called and texted as much as we could. It wasn't easy when I was going to bed she was waking up. Why was this so hard? Wasn't love sopposed to get through anything?

While you and I are running out of time

1 more month, that's all it is 1 more month.

We got into a fight today, I asked her if she was even still trying, if she still cared. She said of course she loved me but it's been so long. We've drifted.

On the phone
I can tell that you wanna move on
Through the tears
I can hear that I shouldn't have gone

She kissed someone else... She called me crying after it happened. She said she was sorry, that she didn't know what came over her. I'm supposed to be angry, pissed, upset. But I'm not, im not mad. It's my fault. In never should have left her. I did this to us. Work be damned, I should have known that she was always supposed to come first.

Every day gets harder to stay away from you

Two weeks left. We talked for the first time in days last night. It was a ling conversation that consisted of a lot of yelling, crying, cussing, and blaming on both parts.... We've come to a conclusion. We're both totally different people. And if were still ment to be then that's that. We're going to be together forever because if we can make it through this then we can make it through anything. But if it's too much, and we just can't be together anymore. Then we'll both need to know that no matter what. We're always going to love eachother.

Six months since I went away
And I know everything has changed
But tomorrow I'll be coming back to you