Dbh Connor x reader

I know I shouldn't complain

I shouldn't complain about this
But I am

sooooooo most of my classes have homework online.

I don't have internet

I've been using a wifi hotspot
And my apartment's clubhouse for wifi

I can't stay very long bc it's a really sketchy place

So I can't get much work done

Bc the homework is a lot and the library near me blocks sites.

Sites I need to get work done.

It's weird.

So y'all can see this predicament

I have sites blocked on everything pretty much every time I go onto a wifi

So I can't get my work done

I have to wait till the school opens just to get some work done that's due the same exact day.

I know I shouldn't complain because some people don't get the privilege of education and I should be thankful and i should find a way to make it work but I can't.

I've been swamped in homework and I know that sounds like a teenager complaining about life and yea it does but I also have to worry about what's the cheapest food I can get, how much does this cost, how long can I stay at the clubhouse for before things get sketchy and I know I shouldn't judge people but it's a sketchy place in a sketchy neighbourhood.

Yes we have security but they don't respond fast enough.

And I'm really trying to come up with things to write about but it's been difficult and already my high school life is spiralling out of control because people in my class are loud and obnoxious and I can't concentrate on the teacher

Most people will see this as I'm not trying hard enough or that I'm just lazy but I'm not I swear. I want to learn, I want to get good grades, I want to go to college, I want to be the best I can but there's so many obstacles in the way.

The school says they care but they really don't and my friends have lives too so I can't just throw my emotional baggage onto them and tell them all my problems

They want us to study for so many tests and yet they want us to get 8 hours of sleep even though we have to read over a shit ton of chapters in textbooks

It's like they disregard the fact that people have clubs and sports or they don't get home until later that night.

They want us to eat a healthy breakfast even though some people don't have time for a fucking piece of toast. I don't have time for any food I have time for a sip of water and that's it.

They base quizzes and tests on memorization and not what we've actually learned and that irks me because how can I memorize when I'm on an empty stomach? How am I supposed to memorize an entire lecture when I'm wondering how I'm gonna be able to eat?

The other students people will say I shouldn't blame them and that i should be the one paying attention to the teacher and not them. But how am I supposed to watch the teacher when the others are throwing pencils and yelling and screaming, not caring about grades or wanting to succeed?

I know I shouldn't complain.
And everyone else here is wanting a one shot of Connor being a sweetheart
I should listen to the requests in the comments
I'm sorry that I haven't been writing a lot lately
I just needed to get this off my chest
Sorry for being a bother.

It's funny though
Not even the beginning of the second week of school and I'm already failing and spiralling out of control

Regular one shots will resume