listen
baby i need you to listen
i'm trying to help
and you just won't listen
try
baby i need you to try
i don't want to leave
but i will say goodbye
and i know i said i wouldn't
and that makes me a liar
and i'm so sorry but
my brain is constantly on fire
trying to figure you out
and what to say
and what to do
but you just won't listen
when i say that i love you
or maybe that's not enough
because you still get mad at me
there's no right thing to say
there's no right way to be
it's never good enough
for you and for me
and as much as i hide it
i want to be free
i never wanted to give up
or leave you behind
but i'm falling back down
and i'm so tired of crying
i'm so tired of lying
all i do is lie
i tell you that i'm happy
when all we do is fight
you wake up pissed off
get up and slam the door
i tried to say i love you
it doesn't matter anymore
i try to say you matter
and that i want you here
but all you hear is what you wanna hear
all you hear are fears
and now i'm finding myself look back
back when i was blackout drunk
back when nothing mattered
it felt so good to be numb
i want to feel that again
i'm so tired of feeling this pain
i'll take hangovers and puking
i'll even take the shame
if that means giving up
it'd feel so good not to feel
it'd feel so good to be enough
even if it's not real
