i'm struggling
and i'm not sure what for
i'm struggling and
you're struggling more
and all i can think about
is how i'm cold to the core
and i want someone to hold me
the way you don't anymore
i'm struggling
between what i want
and who i am
the me that's blunt
tells me love is a scam
the other part tells me
i'm kind of a tramp
for wanting more
wanting someone else
and now i'm at war
it tells me i should walk
straight out the door
but i can't leave you
as i've proved before
but maybe i can cheat you
despite what i swore
i swore i'd never leave you
never thieve you
never do anything
to try and deceive you
i can not believe
what i huge piece of shit i am
i can not believe
i'm fucking back here again
contemplating the same things
i have time and time again
it only every brings
confusion and pain
i never sort through the knot
never unpick
the lock
i can't solve the puzzle of us
or me
i can't figure out anything
i'm in a constant rut
that i can't drive through
i try to be happy
but i'm always so blue
i'm struggling
and youre struggling more
i'm in love with you babe
but you're dating a whore
