Anxiety .
Something most of us battle with more than we would like .
Something I , battle with more than I'd like.
You get to a point where you think you're finally free . It's gone . But then it hits you from behind when you least expect it .
I'm a stressor . I stress . About anything and everything.
I've never used the word Anxiety as what I'm dealing with because it immediatly makes me think of a mental illness like depression. And it makes me feel bad to think that I may have that . But when you look up the word it means ; A mental health disorder characterised by feelings of worry. So in other words stress .
I've been "stressing " for as long as I can remember. And not because my parents pressure me to be the best and do the best . Because it's quite the opposite. They don't pressure me . They support me . Stand by me and what ever comes my way.
So why am I stressing?
I don't know.I've actually gotten better. I wrote my Prelim Exams with only REALLY breaking down in anxiety once . When I wrote my Maths . It was the worst it's ever been .
I couldn't sleep . I was moody and grumpy . It felt as if I couldn't breathe . And no matter what I did it got worse . It got so bad my mom had to get me relaxation medicine to calm me . I even drank cups and cups of Chamomile tea to relax before bed .
It was bad .
But then I found the scripture Phil 4:6-7 . I can't remember how I came across it but it read ;
"Be Careful ( anxious) for nothing; but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving , let your requests be made unto God. And the peace of God , which passeth all understanding , shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus ."
It spoke so much to me that I studied it in my Bible study .
And basically, it says that having anxiety is a sign of lack of faith. Because you're having anxiety about something, thinking you can't and won't be able to do it , out of lack of faith .
When in reality all that anxiety can be taken away by giving it over to God . Letting Him take over and take control over your situation , fear, mind , whatever it is that's causing you to be anxious.
Because if there's one thing that I learned with being a Christian , is that no matter what I can put my faith in the Lord and trust Him to guide me through this storm .
And I have to admit I thought I got better. That I moved past my anxiety . I haven't taken anymore calming medicine or Chamomile tea for weeks now and it feels so good ! I feel so free !
But then yesterday it got me again . I laid in bed and like always my thoughts run about what happend that day etc . And then a thought came up .
Are you SURE you're ready for your finals ?
You know you're not going to have anyone you know there ?
What if you ' accidentally ' break one of the rules and fail ?
What if you don't make it ,then all this was for nothing ?
I freaked out . I couldn't sleep that night. It was like I was consumed with fear and doubt about , am I really prepared, what am I going to do , do I try to make friends?
It's heavy.
But then the next day I was reminded that what God has done for me already .
He has brought me this far without being anxious .
He has helped me through my anxious time .
He has never left my side.
So why am I being anxious? There's nothing to worry about .
There is nothing the enemy can say to me to make me doubt in what the Lord has promised to do .
And there nothing the enemy can say to make you lose your faith in God and what He has planned for your life .
So I'm here today to say ; don't believe the lies the enemy tells you . Don't let him consume you with anxious thoughts. You are better than that .
You a better than the anxiety you are feeling. Better than the panic in your breathe or the rising of your heartbeat.
YOU ARE THE DAUGHTER OF THE LIVING LORD JESUS CHRIST !
And there's nothing He cannot fix and take away .
So stop being anxious and put your faith and trust in the Lord . Lift your eyes up and see Him for what He's doing for you .
You'll get through this , I promise.
And if you ever want to talk , I'm always here to lend a listening ear ❤
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