Victorie things ill never say

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by DiegosVodka

by DiegosVodka

A/N your birthday in this is around Christmas time. Tonks Fred and Remus survived

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It was the first day of December and it was already hell for you. You had been spending the day with your friend Victorié and your brother Teddy. All day they asked you the same question witch was 'what do you want for Christmas.' Normally it wouldn't bother you but for some reason it bothered you so much this year.. "Y/n/n! Wait up!" Dominiques voice calls out for you to wait up. Sighing you move over to one side of the Hall waiting for her to catch up to you "yes Domi?" You ask lightly "so im just wondering what would you like for your birthday this year? Last year you wanted..." She says your mind goes of track thinking of what you really wanted for your birthday. The only thing that came to your mind was your mother back seeing as she died in the last wizarding war against Voldemort. She had given birth to you two weeks prior to the war and you where left with your dreaded father to look after you. An abusive homophobic dad. The only family member you know yet they hate you and abuse you. "I want to see my mum" Was all you say before carrying in your walk towards your houses common room. As you get to the common room you say the password and walk over to the couch grabbing a book to study your favorite lesson.
Stress and anger piled up on you at this time of the year for buying all of your friends and their families Christmas presents. It was a known fact to pretty much the whole school that you didn't have to love like the Weasley-potter family loved each other.

"Always golden when the day met the night" Lucy sings walking into your common room "in the middle of the winter" You replied putting the book down "Y/n" Lucy says dragging you name in a whiney voice "yes lucyyyyyyyy?" You replied "are you and Victorie dating?" She asks quietly "honestly Lucy I don't know what we are anymore" You replied "what do you mean?" She asks sitting down besides you. "Well we have a complicated relationship" She said sighing. "I don't want to talk about it" You said sighing again "okay well why don't we go hogsmeade together?" Lucy asks flipping her brown hair in font of her eyes "we can't Luce. Maybe next weekend" You replied.
Smiling Lucy nods an heads back to her common room. You smile and go to your dorm and grab your guitar and start to strum the strings before playing a tune to your favorite song while singing a different song. "I'm tugging at my hair
I'm pulling at my clothes
I'm trying to keep my cool
I know it shows
I'm staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red
I'm searching for the words inside my head

'Cause I'm feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
'Cause I know you're worth it
You're worth it
Yeah

It don't do me any good
It's just a waste of time
What use is it to you
What's on my mind
If ain't coming out
We're not going anywhere
So why can't I just tell you that I care

'Cause I'm feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
'Cause I know you're worth it
You're worth it
Yeah

What's wrong with my tongue
These words keep slipping away
I stutter, I stumble
Like I've got nothing to say

'Cause I'm feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
'Cause I know you're worth it
You're worth it
Yeah

Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I want to blow you, away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say
These things I'll never say" You sing quietly. Sighing you out down the guitar and lean against the headrest. "Why don't you try a different note?" Teddy asks looking over at you turning his hair back to short blue "because the song isn't what I wrote and It'll be classed as copyright" You replied "yet you'll happily sing to the song" He asks. "Yes" You replied.

~~~your birthday~~~

It was your birthday and it was boring that day. No one wished you a happy birthday. Most people had gone out of their way to ignore you on your birthday. Of course you said you didn't care but deep down it really hurt you. You tried to talk to Victorie and she flat out ignored you. Same with Lucy. You had a girl feeling you should just go home a week early. So here you where packing to go home on your birthday.

36 days till Christmas.

So Im going to do a part two to this one but it's not going to be apart of the Christmas count down next count down one shot is for Dominique