Introverted By My Thoughts [✓]

Drifting

Chills run through my spine,
As I wallowed away,
Thinking of how I left you hanging.
I left you to the fate of the night.
Probably rolling over your bed,
Staring down at your phone,
Just waiting.
"When he is going to text?" you must have wondered.
"Is he ever going to come online?" You must have thought.
Restlessly waiting, desperately staring,
"He should text soon, I know he would.. he must."
Battling sleep as it gently crawled in,
Eyelids shutting for a bit.
Hastily opening,
But they were lost deep.
Finally, giving into its demands,
Closing those beautiful eyes as you drifted off to sleep.
"Why didn't he come online?" you must have wondered as you slept.
My pacing heart skipping a beat,
Each time,
Reminiscing thoughts of you.
You didn't deserve to be felt hanging that way.
Not by me,
Not by anyone else.
Apologies, only drifting us apart with each mistake.
Complicated explanations, now made the order of the day.
Crowned and enthroned;
Excuses, ruling over us.
I hate to see you saddened by my actions.
I want to hold your hands,
And tell you everything would be alright between us.
But would that be yet another lie?