That night of ours. Book 2

Chapter 8

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We went back to the hotel. We decided to watch movie. "Want popcorn?" He says as he jumps into the bed next to me. "Of course." I say as I grab some from the plate. "So? Found the movie?" He asks. I nod as I choose the movie. I place the laptop in front of us. It is called "A Star Is Born". As we watch I was cold and too tired to go grab a blanket. "You cold?" He asks as he looks at me. The light from the laptop is reflecting on his eyes. They are sparkling. "No, I am good." I say as I look at the movie. I can feel his arm behind me. He pulls me closer to him. "Shawn?!" I say. I mean Not that I am complaining. "Just trust me, Toni. Can you trust me?" He says. It just feels so sweet to hear something like this. I nod not knowing if this is right. I mean it feels right. He holds my hand into his. "What do you feel about me, Toni?" He asks me as he stares into my eyes. I just look at him more like stared. "Toni?" He says softly. His hands are holding tighter to mine. "Whatever you feel about me. I just wanted to let you know that..I still love you. I never stopped not even when you walked away. Give me a chance. I will prove to you that I can give you anything you want. I will try my best to make you happy. Will you give me this chance?" He says. I just sit there can't say a word. I mean I knew that Shawn loved me. But.. this...this is what I will never be able to imagine. "Toni, talk to me please." He says still as soft as he can be. "Shawn... I..." I sight. He leaves my hands. His arm is pulled away. He just sits on the bed his legs on the floor. I look at his back. "I knew that you will never love me. It is okay. But, I won't stop." He says as he gets up and leaves the room. I look at the laptop. I close the movie. I just laid down in bed with a million thoughts that I never wanted to have.

"Get up mom!" I can feel her hand shaking me to wake up. "What?" I say as I get up. "Can I go with Shawn to the stage?" She asks. She is wearing a pair of ripped jeans and a red cropped hoodie. Her hair is lose. "Is this make up on your face, young lady?" I ask her as I get up from the bed. "What? No." She says rolling her eyes. "What did I say about the make up, Tina?" I say. "Let her do what she want, Toni." I hear him. I really didn't get that much sleep last night thanks to him. I couldn't stop thinking about what happened. The things he said, the way he held my hands. "See? Shawn likes it!" She says. "Fine." I say. "I will wait for you in the car, Shawn!" She says as she walks right outside the room. "Good morning. Don't worry I will take care of her." He says as he turns to walk outside. "Shawn!" I call him. I don't know why. I just did it. I walk to him. "Yeah?" He asks. We are facing each other. "I am really sorry about last night. I am just tired and Evan and I just split up and" "Toni! It is okay. It was nothing anyways." He says as he walks away. I really hurt him. I hate to hurt him. I mean apart of me still likes that guy. And it is growing.