Silenced

Chapter 34

                    Thomas didn't text me until the next morning. He said he wanted to meet so that we could talk face to face. I wasn't naive enough to think that anything good would come from the conversation we were going to have. I made my way down stairs and outside. Cassy was on the front porch in tears and Jason was yelling at her.

"... psychotic family gets in the way of everything..." He stopped as I walked over to make sure Cassy was ok.

'Everything ok?' I asked.

"It's fine Rylan... Just go." She said.

"Go?" Jason asked. "Why should she go? This is her fault. She's the one trying to break us up in the first place." He said. I had no intention of fully leaving unless I knew Cassy was ok.

"Jason!" Cassy gasped.

"Like you should be listening to her anyway... She has no room to give relationship advice when she's about to get dumped..." He said. I looked up in surprise. "That's right. Thomas knows you're a used-up whore. He doesn't want you."

"Jason!" Cassy shoved him. Jason didn't budge but in a flash he had slapped her across the face. Before I could fully process what I was doing I had grabbed Jason's shirt, pulled back my arm, and punched him in the face. There was an audible crunch. Blood poured from his nose as he tried to cover it.

"You fucking bitch!" He roared. Cassy stepped quickly in between us.

"Get the hell out of here Rylan!" Cassy said pushing me back.

I hesitated. I didn't want to leave her here with Jason alone.

"Now!" She yelled when I didn't move. 

"So I've thought a lot about this." Thomas words were still ringing in my ears. "I don't think I can do this. Aaron told me what's wrong with you. He's super against us and obviously he is right. I don't know how to deal with someone that's been raped and definitely not the whole PTSD thing... I just can't. You have to work on yourself." I just stood there like an idiot. Letting him do all of the talking. Jason's words circled back as well. I was used up.

I didn't know what to do. I was basically hiding. Thomas made it clear he didn't want to see me as did Cassy. I had destroyed two friendships in a matter of minutes.

Thomas words wouldn't stop circling in my head. I needed to get out of this room but if I did I risked running into Thomas. What I really needed was to get out of this pack. According to the Beta that wasn't an option, only the alpha could let me leave. He was out of town attending more meetings. No one could tell me when he would be back or even give me an estimate. Soon. That was all the Beta would say when I asked. He said "soon" three days in a row. I had started asking two days in. He's been gone for five days. He left the morning after the party. With no way to know how much longer it would be I was going crazy. I sat up and my cell phone hit the floor with a thud. I had forgotten about it. Emily asked me to text her in case I felt like talking. I didn't but I picked it up and scrolled through the contacts. Aaron Avi, Emily Avi, Cassy, Alisa, Kyson, Adam. There were so many people in my contacts. I paused on the Alphas name. I knew it was crossing a line. Only those high up in the pack were supposed to have his personal contact information. I selected his name anyway. The message I typed out was short and to the point.

*When will you be back?*

I stared at it. I tried to think of how I used to be. I couldn't decide if this was something I would have done before all of this happened. I would never have texted my alpha. I pressed the button to delete it but it was the wrong button. The faint whoosh of the message being sent made my breath catch. I had just texted an alpha. I set the phone down. My mind was racing. He was going to be so angry. It was already getting late.

The phone pinged and blinked with a new message.

*Two days. Is everything ok?*

He sounded worried. I suppose anyone would be if they received a text in the middle of the night. I tried to think of something to say. I hadn't been ok in so long it would be a lie to say I was. I didn't want to say I wasn't because that would worry him even more. I wasn't even sure if he knew who he was talking to. I hadn't thought to add my name.

*Rylan?* Another text came through. So, he did know. I had to reply or he would get even more concerned.