How do you rebuild yourself from nothing ?
I'm so scared of breathing
Waking up
Moving
Leaving my house
Being around people and talking
Because I am not held up by bridges
But by weeds decorated in thorns
Scratching ever so slowly
So slowly
But so painfully into my souls surface
Carving pieces of everything I am away
I feel like I'm sitting in empty darkness
And I have to conjure the sun with dust
No hands to caress my soul softly
No stars or worlds to feel alive in
No purpose to pursue reality
So I drink a little vodka
A little rum
A few shots whiskey
Spin my head around like a coin
Go fast then slow then land on my side
Dreaming away of paradise
Trying to figure out the last I knew light
Unraveling my memories hallways and locked doors
Searching for how to feel again and awaken
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Desolation boy 3 - help me
PoetryThis one is for the ones who don't feel like they exist. And the ones who never get a break from pain. All poems are from my head, heart, soul and personal experiences 🛑TRIGGER WARNING🛑
