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Desolation boy 3 - help me

Poetry

This one is for the ones who don't feel like they exist. And the ones who never get a break from pain. All poems are from my head, heart, soul and personal experiences 🛑TRIGGER WARNING🛑

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Death

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by demxns--inside

by demxns--inside

I'm on a carousel and my head is whirling too fast

I can't focus on who to be

What to feel

I'm emotionally shot

Sick

Dead

And so cold

Why do I get so cold when the unbearable emptiness sets in?

Or maybe it's the scratch I gave myself a couple days ago

I hope it's infected

I hope it's spreading

I hope I die

I want to kiss death

I think it'll be the moment I finally feel at peace

Then I'll dance away in deaths arms

He'll caress me and show me the beauty of the afterlife

I won't feel cold and empty

I won't feel like I'm attached to strings like a puppet

I won't feel crazy

I won't feel lost

I'll be at peace

I don't know if anyone can convince me that death isn't less beautiful than life.