I wish my mouth was sewn up
So I couldn't ruin everything
I wish I could die so I can't burden everyone anymore
I'm not good enough for him
And I'm not what my mother wanted
My brother never talks to me
And my sister hates me
No friends text me anymore
the only outside world contact I talk to is my psychiatrist
Money is becoming extinct
I feel myself falling deep
I scratched my arm till it bled to prove I'm alive
But now I want more
I want a blade so I can cut myself again
I crave it
I want it
I need it
My relapse is here and it's here to stay for a while
It's tightening its grip harder and harder
It's been 6 years and I still love the silver blade dipping into the soft skin
I can't escape it
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Desolation boy 3 - help me
PoetryThis one is for the ones who don't feel like they exist. And the ones who never get a break from pain. All poems are from my head, heart, soul and personal experiences 🛑TRIGGER WARNING🛑