Del Rico Triplets #2: Retracing The Steps

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Trigger warning; This Chapter contains sensitive issue and disturbing scenes. Read at your own risk!

Plan

I'm fucking pregnant! That evil man managed to get into me and now he got me pregnant. Was this intentional?

I recalled him whenever he brings up the topic of making a child. Noon. Noong hindi pa ganito kagulo ang lahat. He did plan this! Why? He could have just use me pero hindi na siya dapat nag-iwan pa ng bata sa akin.

Didn't he told me that I almost killed his child with his beloved? That means that child is alive and kicking!

I gasped when something gotten into my head. Maybe he did got me pregnant as a payment of the life I took away from him. Hindi pa siguro sapat sa kaniya na gamitin ako. He wants a child from me and I am thinking of the cruelest reason why.

Maybe because after he dispose me, he'll get back to my child. Oo nga naman. Baka saktan niya ang bata? Gamitin iyon para madurog pa ako lalo? O baka... kunin niya ang bata at ilayo sa akin? Baliwin akong lalo sa pamamagitan ng sanggol. He knows that I love to have a child with him, too. Baka ang batang ito pa ang magdusa nang husto.

I laughed hysterically. My thoughts are filling my head. How evil can Troi be? He thought that he could hurt me using this child? Like a crazy one, I laughed hard. Troi didn't know that I could be this evil, too.

Hindi niya alam na kaya akong baguhin ng mga nangyari sa akin. That I could be a worst mother to this child inside me. Ngayon pa nga lang ay pinanghihinayangan ko na nagawa pa nitong manatili sa loob ko.

Hagulgol at tawa ang ginagawa ko. Iyon marahil ang nakaagaw ng atensyon ng nasa labas.

When Bastian visited me on my room, he was worried of my sudden burst out. Nakailang tanong niya sa akin kung bakit ako umiiyak at tumatawa na parang nasisiraan na ng ulo. Kung tignan ako nito ay para akong tinubuan ng tatlong ulo.

"May m-masakit ba sa iyo?" bahagyang natatakot ang itsura niya nang tanungin iyon.

I stopped laughing but my eyes still shed tears. Nagkibit-balikat ako sa kaniya at saka humiga at tumalikod.

Bjorne and Blake came in, too. Katulad noong isang pinsan nila, nagtatanong din. I just let them faced my back. Wala akong ingay o salitang naririnig sa kanila maliban sa kani-kanilang paghinga. Well, not after I've been crying for almost an hour. It's not like I like to do that, tho. Ang sarili ko ang hindi humihinto sa pag-iyak kahit ayaw ko na,

"Cortez, stop crying. It's not good for your health," Bjorne said.

I heard Blake cursed him and 'tsked' afterwards.

"Why do you always call her that? She's now a Del Rico," Bastian called out.

"And you think she'll like that? After what that fucker did?" Bjorne snorted after he sarcastically said that.

Suminghot ako at lalong umiyak nang umiyak. Bad for my health or bad for the baby inside me? Iiyak ako nang iiyak para makasama talaga iyon because that's what I want! If only my younger self could see me, maybe she'll look at me with disgust.

I heard a knock from the door. Later on, Alesha's voice came in.

"How is she? I brought her milk," anito sa nakaugaliang malamyos na boses.

"She's been crying, Tita," Blake answered.

I heard a feminine gasps. Mayamaya pa, naramdaman ko ang paglundo ng kama. Tanda na may umupo roon. Alesha's warm hand patted my back.