"if only.." TordTom highschool au

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I looked up at Tord while Tony just smirked at him. "awe Tommy... Is this your boyfriend?~" he teased and pulled away from Tord while I just looked away from them with a bright red face.

I looked down at my sleeve to see blood, he must've opened some cuts... Oh well.

Tony chuckled at my reaction and Tord's silence before walking away and shoving his hands in his pockets.

Tord also walked away. He didn't say anything.... I'll talk to him in the garden. I stood up straight and ignored the blood before heading off to my class with a sigh.

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Class went by quickly and I went straight to the garden like I always do. I did my daily chores which included watering the flowers, pulling the weeds, and some other stuff but Tord never came which was odd... I tried not to think about it but hah, I failed.

My anxiety started to go off as I realized I only had 10 mins left till I gotta go to my next class.

I started itching at my neck and tearing up by looking at all the things in front of me.. the flowers weren't helping.. they just reminded me of them...

I started breathing heavily but I felt like I couldn't breath, making me scratch at my neck even more, cutting it up slightly with my nails.

Why isn't he here?

Was it because he doesn't like me anymore?

Did he even like me in the first place?

Of course he didn't.

Nobody likes me.

I'm worthless.

I'm stupid.

I'm ugly.

I'm a monster.

I'm a freak.

I should go die....
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Yeah.

Maybe I will die.
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I felt a pair of warm arms wrapped around me and pull me close. Of course I panicked a bit before looking up and saw Tord then immediately calmed down and smiled a bit.

"Are you ok? Sorry I didn't say anything earlier.." he said quietly and rested his head on my shoulder.

I nodded and leaned back on him. "yeah, I'm fine."

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After school me and Tord went to my house to get my stuff. I was shaking while unlocking the front door, for some reason scared.

I took a deep breath before walking inside and heading up to my room quickly... It was a bad habit of mine.

Tord followed me and helped me pack my clothes but while he wasn't paying attention I grabbed my blades and shoved them into a thick shirt before putting them with the rest.of my clothes.

"Thank you Tord.." I said quietly before turning and looking at the other male.

Tord gave me a soft smile and gently kissed my forehead that left me with pink cheeks.

I smiled at the kiss and hugged him before we finished packing everything and leaving back to his house.

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We got back to his house, ate dinner with his parents, went back up stairs, and unpacked some of my stuff.

I sighed and grabbed some pajamas. "I'mma go take a shower..."

"May I join?" Tord said somewhat innocently to my surprise. I nodded nervously and walked to the bathroom with him.

He shut the door and turned the water on warm while I set my clothes on the counter and grabbed towels for us from under the sink and put them on our clothes.

Tord let out a small happy sigh before starting to undress, starting with his shirt. I couldn't help but stare, like, damn he got a body...

He caught me staring and winked at me, causing my whole face to go bright red as I turned to look away from him. "why'd you wanna shower with me?" I asked quietly.

He chuckled a bit. "So I could make sure you do nothing stupid. And you look adorable when your flustered.~"

"Shut up!" I huffed and started undressing. I hesitated a bit before taking everything off while Tord had already finished.

He helped me undo the bandages, I unwrapped my wrists while he did my ankles and thighs.

He looked up at me as he finished up unwrapping my thigh, I didn't think much about it until and softly kissed my inner thigh which madee jump.

He chuckled and stood up straight before getting in the shower while I just stood there confused as hell.

"Pervert." I huffed and got in with him. "yup." He said happily and looked me up and down while biting his lip.

I flicked his nose which got him to jump a little and made me giggle.

He rolled his eyes with a smile before wrapping his arms around my waist..

"You know, Thomas.. I don't get why you'd want to hurt this amazing body you got.." he said with a small smile.

I looked up at him with a redder than red face before feeling his lips press against mine.

I was confused at first and wanted to resist but ended up finding myself melting into the soft kiss with a smile.

Hah cliffhanger.
Ily you all and you know it💜
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