"if only.." TordTom highschool au

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I quickly wiped my tears away and looked at Tord who was staring at me with this sad expression, he was clearly waiting for me to rant to him or something but that's not happening.

I got up and just walked to my class and sat in the classroom with my teacher, me and her talk for a bit. Nothing special though, just small talk and stuff.

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After school I went straight home and to Pat and Pau's room, knocking first of course, and sat on the bed next to them crying.

They were the only people other than Tommy that I could talk to.

I told them everything. And I mean everything. Like how Tord and Edd being together made me wanna kill myself. How I won't stop having these nightmares, how I'm failing my classes cause of all the stress and stuff.

Pat sighed a bit and rubbed my back. "you know, Tom.... We could always adopt you.. then you wouldn't have to sorry about these things.... And things would get better if you'd just talk to your therapist..-"

I cut him off cuz NO. "you guys adopting me would only make things worse! And I am NOT telling some old person about what's going on in my life just for them to turn around and tell every single person about how they have this stupid freak patient! It's not happening!" I actually started tearing up, like, what the hell tears. Get back in my eyeball.

Pau rubbed his face a bit. "ok, ok, Thomas.. just please calm down... We love you ok? You're like a son to us so if you ever change your mind, we'll be waiting.."

I just nodded and walked out of the room wiping my eyes and went to my room but as soon as I opened the door all I saw was Tord and Edd in the middle of a heated make out session and I am NOT staying to watch Tord shove his tongue down Edd's throat. That shit be gross. Bleh. >:P

I went to the living room and sat on the couch before getting my phone out and texting Matt, asking him to come over so I'm not lonely.

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I heard a knock on the door and I immediately got up to go see if it was Matt, and to my luck, it was. UwU.

He greeted me with a happy, "hi!" And a hug and I of course hugged back cuz I'm q good friend.

"So, why'd you ask for me to come over?" He asked as I closed the front door.

"Well you see. I'm pretty sure Tord and Edd are, , um, , 'playing' and I don't want to be alone."

He just gave me this weird look before realizing what I was talking about. "Ooooooh ok."

I giggled a bit and walked back to the living room bit with him this time. "and I have a question."

We both sat down on opposite ends of the couch but looking at each other. "ask away, friend."

I smiled nervously. "do you know how to cut and dye hair?"

Matt gasped a bit. "um, of course I do! What color are you doing and what hairstyle?"

I smiled happily. "ok so, I want the back shaved and it dyed like a checkered bored but the tips of my hair dyed dark blue. Do you think that'll look alright?"

"Um. YES. You have dye right?" He asked as he got up and I nodded. "yup."

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I grabbed all the stuff and walked to the bathroom with my tall friend, Matt, with a smile on my face.

I made Matt turn around so I could change into a old long sleeved shirt so we could dye my hair and cut it. Which we did UwU

Matt first cut my hair and shaved the sides and back, I couldn't really sit still, the sound of the razor against my head scared the shit out of me.