Our World ~ Hamilsquad x Reader {DISCONTINUED}

Chapter Twenty-Six ♡

John's POV

I didn't know why Herc thought what he said was a good time to say it. Or even why he was thinking it in the first place. I knew (Y/N) wasn't just my girlfriend, but did Herc really think I had forgotten?

The last thing I thought was that they'd - or at least Herc would - consider me possessive. Yeah, I was constantly looking out for (Y/N), but not because I was possessive. All I wanted to do was protect her.

Since Adrian had cornered her in the park, something flickered in me. I had been the one to help her then, and the one she called when Adrian followed her home. Yet the one time she needed someone most, I couldn't help her.

I knew they were grieving- we all were. Was me showing it more often creating the wrong image to them? It shouldn't have been. I didn't think I was any higher than them, so why were wrong pictures being created of me?

'Was Herc... jealous?'

'Why else would he say what he said?'

'Was I blowing it out of proportion?'

'He thought you forgot about them.'

'Was she going... to die? Then what?'

'Then you'd be dating the man who had a hand in killing you guys' girlfriend. You said you'd leave, remember?'

'Maybe I was being possessive...'

'The only thing you were being was the one helping her. Of course you're going to show your grief more.'

'Does that mean I failed?'

'What's 'failure' to you?'

'I didn't save her in time... and now she might die...'

'But the others didn't save her either. Even if you 'failed', you're not the only one who did.'

'But they won't say they failed, did they?'

'Will they say anything?'

'I... don't know. The only thing they've said is it wasn't my fault; that's their sole reassurance.'

'Seems like a weak reassurance if you ask me. It doesn't seem like they're trying too hard to help you either, except for Alex.'

Herc's POV

Alex looked at us in a mix of emotions. Once he collected his hurricane of thoughts, he cleared his throat. "Okay. Look, Herc, I'm sorry, but did you really have to say that to John?"

"But he's always the one to save her!" I exclaimed, "she could've called any one of us when Adrian followed her, but it had to be him!"

"Yet he was the only one to chase after her when she ran out," Alex responded.

"You say yet to that? That's another reason!"

"Herc, none of us even moved."

"It's always about her! He's always trying his hardest with her! What about us?! He's acting like he's doing the worst out of all of us, when we're all equally grieving here!"

"Have you ever thought that maybe John is doing worse than all of us?" Alex shot back. "For just a minute, look from his perspective. He's saved her twice from things that could've been very bad. And the one time things are at their worst, he doesn't make it in time. Herc, he swore to himself he'd protect her! Is 'possessive' really the word you want to use?"

"Yes, it is! Laf, you see it too, right?" I looked over at Laf, who seemed to be at a loss for words.

"I... oui? J'en sais pas," Laf shrugged.

"Laf, you have to see it. I know I'm not the only one!" I responded, exasperated.

"Hercules, what in the ever-living f*ck has happened to you? If anything, you and John were like the closest people in this relationship, and now you're reprimanding him? Just because he used the word 'my' once, or because he's crying a little more than we are?"

"Mes amours, maybe we should continue this at 'ome instead--"

"Alex, I'd like to know if you're actually oblivious to this, or if you know, and you're trying to make up for yourself, instead," I retaliated.

For once, Alex looked genuinely shocked. "I'm sorry, what?"

I stood up. "Y'know, I'm done with this bullsh*t."

I walked away, hearing a sigh from behind me before someone else stood up. I was expecting it to be Alex, ready to fire back, but it was only Laf catching up to me.

"Oui..." he muttered.

"Yes, what?"

"I see it too... I understand. I think you're kind of... right."

Alex's POV

'What the hell just happened?'

I watched as Laf sighed, standing up and following Herc with no words to me.

Normally, (Y/N) would be the peacekeeper whenever a - rare - problem arose between us, but now not only was she in a coma, the problem was somewhat about her.

I sat alone in the hall for a few minutes.

"Sir?"

I looked up, seeing Doctor Wilkins standing in the doorway of (Y/N)'s room. "Doctor Wilkins!"

"Oh, Mr. Hamilton! It took me a minute, my apologies."

I simply stood up, waving her off. "It's alright. I heard what happened earlier... how's she doing?"

"Luckily (Y/N) is stable now. Results show she still has two months of her life support."

Doctor Wilkins paused a moment. "By the way, I heard quite a bit of exclamation out here. What was going on?"

"Well... just some wrong words at the wrong time. Also some... clashing opinions. It's just me now; I doubt they'll be coming back."

She frowned. "That's unfortunate. I was going to come out a bit ago to say you could see her, but I suppose the less crowded, the better."

Doctor Wilkins opened the door all the way, letting me in before Doctor Anderson and a few nurses filed out. "I'll leave you be. Have a good day, Mr. Hamilton."

"Thank you, Doctor Wilkins. You as well."

She smiled before shutting the door behind her. I sighed, walking over to one of the seats next to (Y/N)'s bed and sitting down.

"I didn't think things could get worse, love, but they did. Poor John is being targeted, and I feel Herc and Laf won't be happy with me for a while."

I chuckled quietly. "We don't have a peacekeeper right now. Nobody can change Herc's mind because Laf agrees with him, and he's pissed at John and I. Laf... I don't even know. As for John, I don't even know how he feels about me right now.

Herc and Laf have each other. But John's alone, I'm alone, and you're pretty much alone too, love. That's the sad thing."

I paused. "I'm worried about John. You've never seen it, but when he's angry and upset it's... honestly scary sometimes."

I took (Y/N)'s hand, holding it tightly. I was nearly stunned when I felt something, like she squeezed my hand. But it didn't happen again.

However, I managed a smile. "I had a feeling you were there somewhere; I have hope. I guess it's just you and I at the moment, love."