BOY NEXT DOOR {namjin}

𝒄𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒆𝒕𝒆𝒆𝒏

𝙼𝚒𝚗 𝚈𝚘𝚘𝚗𝚐𝚒

I sigh as I untangle my legs from Hoseok, earning an annoyed groan. His grip tightens on me as I fall back down.

"Where are you going?" He asks, eyes not opening. I smile at the sight in front of me as I move some hair from his face.

"You know how you had to leave the other day to help Seokjin?" He hums. "Namjoon doesn't look happy." He sits upright, taking me with him. I make myself comfortable as I strangle his waist and sit on his lap, facing him. I get pulled closer as his face cuddles into the crook of my neck, making me giggle.

"Would it be because of Jin?" He asks, voice muffled by my shirt. "He has work today... Should I check on him?"

"I think the chance of it being between Namjoon and Seokjin is big." I sigh contently as I feel a light kiss being pressed to the side of my neck. I lean my face to the side, giving him more access to work his magic.

"Then maybe we should go check on them, don't you think?" I can't concentrate as Hoseok keeps leaving butterfly kisses in between talking driving me crazy. I hum in response. I feel him smirk against my neck.

"Words, kitten. Use your words." He starts to softly bite my sweet spot while I close my eyes out of satisfaction,

"I- I think they can w- wait." Hoseok pulls away from my neck and flashes me a bright smile as he pulls me back down on top of him and starts to cuddle me.

"Great, we can sleep for five more minutes." He smiles as his eyes close. I scoff and hit him lightly.

"How dare you abuse my sweet spot just to get five more minutes of sleep? I'm going to check on, Namjoon." I get up as I look back to see him toss around to finally find a somewhat comfortable position. "You didn't stay either when Seokjin needed you." I cross my arms playfully and leave him to sleep on the couch alone.

I knock on my roommates door softly to hear nothing in response. I open the door to find him face down on his bed. I roll my eyes and take a seat on the side of his bed. I yawn as I place a hand on his back.

"Tell me what went wrong?" I ask as he moves his face to the side and get some air. "Because you look pathetic."

"No judging?" He asks as he points his pinky at me. I lock mine with him to confirm. A silly thing we did when we were younger, but it somehow stuck. "I kissed him."

"Really? You kissed, Seokjin? Why are you so upset, then?" I ask, enthusiasm taking over me. Namjoon takes the time to sit up and move his hand through his hair.

"No! It feels weird to, you know... Kiss a boy." He looks down as I see the genuine struggle he's going through and keep listening. "Last night it was the moment that made us kiss. Of course, it was nice... It just felt so wrong. It's like I didn't quite reach my expectations. I tried again this morning, but I don't know. There's some part of my brain telling me it's wrong, but then another part tells me to keep going."

"How did it feel?" I ask, as he turns to me.

"What?"

"The kiss. How did it feel?" A small smile creeps onto Namjoons features as I see his dimples show.

"He was the one to actually lean in and kiss me. His plump lips felt so soft and smooth against mine." I smile as Namjoons keeps explaining what happened. "I didn't know what to do at first because he began to cry... But when I kissed him again... It just felt, right... But o so wrong."

"What about this morning?" I saw his sad expression return, wanting to turn it into a happy one.

"I don't know what came over me. I just went for it and pressed my lips against his. I recon it's his eyes." He turns to me as I keep a small smile on my face. "They're so innocent and beautiful, yet they hide so much sadness when you really look at those brown orbs. I just don't know what to do. I'm not gay..."

"How did he react?" I ignore his last sentence and keep digging for answers.

"Well, he cried the first time, but then he actually asked me to kiss him again... He asked me to show him how he should be kissed." I look at the floor as I remember Hoseok telling me about his abusive ex. "I did. He smiled again and asked me to stay, which I understood because he started crying. This morning was different, though. I don't think he expected it, at all. He just became a stuttering mess and ran to his work. I guess it was... Cute?" I place a hand on Namjoons shoulder and smile.

"You know gay isn't the only sexuality where a boy can feel attracted to another boy, right? Maybe it'll feel right to kiss him once you try to understand that. You obviously feel attracted to him in some way, why else would you kiss him again."

"Why is love so complicated? I wish it was as simple for me as for you and Hoseok." He leans his face in his hands. I laugh softly.

"Hoseok's just more... Impulsive. Than Seokjin, that is. It was clear he wanted me and wasn't going to give up until I gave in to it. Maybe you just have to talk to Seokjin about it to see where you guys stand. Seokjin's had a rough past, don't do things like this if you're not sure. He's not an experiment." He shakes his head. I realise I might have sounded a little to protective at that last part. Did Hoseok somehow share his worries with me by biting me earlier? I rub the side of my neck as I continue to watch Namjoon struggle.