IN SEARCH OF TRUST!

7. happy? or apology?

Duvett's pov:

I wake up at 5am when my alarm rings. I'm awake from my dream and the 'love at first sight' hangover I had yesterday. Oh damn! Was it love first of all?.. I know he looked attractive and all but was my feeling even love?

I shut my alarm off as it is ringing simultaneously hundred times. I crawl out of my dear bed and wipe my sleep off my eyes. I walk to my balcony to dump my leftover sleep in the air.

As I enter, cold air hits my bare thighs. It feels good... My heart has a pleasant pleasure. My brain is tremendously happy with his shirtless images in it. When the cold air hits me the fire ignited inside me increases. There's a strong electricity encouraging the fire to burn big. The feeling in me is inexpressible.

I run to the bathroom to get a quick shower. I wanna see him.. As soon as I want. This thought encourages me to get ready soon. I quickly brush my teeth. I skip flossing today cuz I don't want to waste my time. I turn the shower on.

The hot water hits my cold face and I feel relaxed... So damn relaxed that I haven't felt before. The burning water is washing out all the discouraging thoughts In me. It's strengthening and tightening the positive veins inside my body. My blood is running fast... Faster than ever before and it's amazing. I wish this lasts long... By long I mean forever. My head is full of his smile.. All the past is run down with the hot water... And.. By the way why was he smiling at me? Did he think I was mentally ill? Did he think I was crazy and mad? Yeah! I'm crazy about him. I'm mad about him.

I drape a towel around my body and move towards the mirror. My lips are smiling and my eyes are lost in their wild fantasy. I didn't even realize my face had a smile.

Well.. I get ready. I don't put on much makeup and I tie my hair into a ponytail. I pick a frock... A knee length one. I pull it over my body. It fits in right. I had bought it long back and it still fits in perfectly. This shows I haven't gained or lost my weight in months,Great!.

I check my timetable for today and pack it accordingly. By the time I reach the hallway after finishing my work it's 6:40. Hell I should be leaving soon.

I reach the kitchen and grab a glass of water first. Then I spread jam and peanut butter over the slices of bread and I start stuffing large bites into my mouth. I really have to hurry.

My mom is still asleep so I walk to her room to inform her that I'm leaving. I reach the door knob to open it but it's locked. So I hurry to the living room, I find my grandpa reading news paper. "papa! Good morning!" I say. My grandpa looks up at me "hey morning my dear. You're leaving?" he asks. "yes... And please tell my mother that I left. Her room is locked so I couldn't tell her" I say and hug him. "what if I don't tell?" he says as I move towards the main door. "I know you will" I smirk and leave.

I run a little way and I completely slow down as im jus 2 buildings away from his house. I take baby steps... Too slow. I don't find him anywhere. He's not on his balcony too. I walk very slow hoping he would come out.

I'm walking too slow but I've already reached his home now. I stand there for a minute. But no.. He didn't come out. I know he's not gonna come. Maybe he's still asleep. It's only 7:30 now... So maybe he didn't get up.

I walk away. I'm a little disappointed. If I would have seen him smile at me again I would be the happiest in my whole college. It would have made my day easier... Like slide in a flow.
I don't turn back to see if he's out because it would hurt me if I don't find him there.

I reach my stop and pull my phone out. I've really forgotten my phone. I haven't watched Netflix.. I haven't even texted my friends and that didn't affect me. It didn't matter to me at all.
As I unlock my screen I have many messages from many people. I seriously don't want to reply so I delete all the messages without even opening them.