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"Seriously, Mcdonalds, right? It is amazing." Alec said as we were walking in the middle of the night to the institute, hand in hand.
I smiled and chuckled softly as I looked over at my boyfriend.
"I know and you have been missing it out for almost twenty years of your life." I said and Alec made a sad face.
"I wasn't myself for almost twenty years of my life until I met someone special." He said and I could feel my heart starting to beat faster.
"Oh really? Who is this someone special?" I asked with a playful smirk around my lips. Alec chuckled as he looked up to the sky.
Now that it was even later, the stars were more visible to see and honestly, it was magnificent but not as much as Alec was. His raven hair shined in the moonlight and his eyes sparkled. He was everyone's dream prince charming but he was mine. I could call him mine. He was my prince charming.
"Her name is Clarissa Adele Fairchild." He said and he knew whenever he spoke out my full name, it annoyed me. I rolled my eyes and playfully hit him on his arm.
"Hey!" He said and I laughed softly.
"Clary?" He asked as he stopped talking and looked over at me. I stood in front of him.
"Yes, my love." I replied and I saw that Alec blushed when I called him my love. That was the first time when I actually saw him blush and it was adorable. Seeing this soft side of him made me fall in love with him all over again.
"Clary, I don't know how but I fell so hard for you. I-I don't even know how to describe in words how I feel about you. I know that I would die if something would happen to you." He said as he stuttered halfway through his sentence. My smile grew by each word he said to me and the butterflies exploded in my stomach.
"I love you so much, Clary. I would die for you and even if we died. Our love would bring us together in heaven. Our souls are bonded forever. I can't live without you nor will I." He said and it hurt my cheekbones to even smile at him.
"I love you, Clary. I want you to know that." He said with a smile on his face and I shyly looked down.
"I love you too, Alec." I said as I looked up again.
Somehow in Alec's eyes, it looked like he was surprised when I said it back. I already knew that I loved him more than anything and it scared me. I didn't know that it was possible to love someone this much until I met him. I knew that this was new to both of us.
Alec leaned in and planted a soft kiss on my lips. This was perfect. Everything was perfect. Alec and I needed time for ourselves and we finally did. Expressing our feelings to one another underneath this dark sky filled with millions of shiny stars was perfect. He was perfect.
"Let's get back before everyone thinks we are missing." Alec said as he broke the kiss. I smiled and nodded.
Even through this time, it was dangerous for me to leave the premises of the institute. Agramon and Valentine were still not capatured and the war they declared was still ongoing. There was so much happening at once that we almost couldn't keep track of it.
Did I wish that we had a normal mundane life?
No.
Everything Alec and I had was complicated but it was us. The Shadow world gave me my family back and gave me Alec. I would never wish for something different than this. I wanted Alec... I wanted him with me forever.
As we reached the institute, everything seemed normal. There were no signs of Agramon or Valentine. I saw Jace walking towards his rooms.
"Alec, I will see you in a bit. I got to talk to him." I said quickly and didn't even wait for Alec to reply back.
I quickly followed my brother to his room and without even knocking, I walked into his room. I saw that he angrily looked at the door to see who it was but his face softened when he saw me and he clearly didn't expect it too.
"Clary? What are you doing here?" He asked. I sighed and closed the door behind us.
"I wanted to see you." I said and I meant it. I missed Jace so much. After our mother's death, he just excluded himself from everyone...
"Why? What happened?" He asked and I could hear from his voice that he was getting worried.
"Did Alec do something?" He asked and I saw him getting angrier. I quickly shook my head.
"Nothing happened, Jace." I said and I saw that he was confused now.
"Then why are you here?" He asked me.
"To see how you are." I said softly and I saw that he rolled his eyes because he got annoyed.
Everyone asked us the question 'How are you!' more than three times a day. Everyone knew that we lost our mother so no we were not okay. It was almost like we had no choice but to say that we are good. They didn't want to know how we did. They felt forced to ask because they knew what had happened.
"Really, Clary. I am okay." He lied and I shook my head.
"I know that you are not okay, Jace." I said softly.
"What do you want me to say, Clary?!" He shouted as he looked at me and the hurt in his eyes was clear to see.
"Tell me how you feel so I can be here for you." I said and Jace shook his head as his eyes were filling with tears.
"What? That I am totally broken that our mother is dead and that I could do nothing to save her?! That the only girl I actually loved, tried to kill all of us. And the hard realization that we might lose this war alongside with the last family member I have." He said without taking a pause.
His voice was shaky and I could tell that he could burst out of tears at any time.
"I feel like I am losing everyone that I care about. It is a curse." He said softly.
"I am a curse. If I care for someone, that person will end up dead. I am a curse to everyone." He said as he cried.
I quickly walked over to him and hugged him. Jace tightly held onto me and cried even louder than he did before.
"You won't lose me. I won't lose this war. I will win it for you and mum. I will win it for us." I said and held onto him.
I knew that he knew that I was scared but everyone relied on me. At the end of the day, I had to face this. I had to face Agramon and kill him. I had to end this war that the Shadowhunters have been fighting for years. Not for my sake but for the shadow world... For Jace... For Alec...
"I am scared." Jace said softly.
"Me too." I said and held him tight.
[I hope you liked this chapter! Alec and Clary's first 'I love you' agh! and poor Jace...]
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