(GxG) Let somebody love you 2019

Chapter 8: Unruly heart

Nephra's POV

After the allergy incident.. Diana started acting all weird around me, kung kabado na sya noon pa ay mas dumoble pa ang pagiging anxious nito. Why is she acting like this? She won't even look at me.. Damn it!

At ang greatest mystery ay..

...why do I care?

Bakit parang desperate naman ata akong kunin ang atensyon nya?! Sino ba sya?... She's a nobody! I reminded myself.

I shot another glance at her direction.. I saw how her hands tremble uncontrollably ng i-abot nito ang tubig saakin..

Is she embarassed? Dahil sa nangyari? She seems very... cautious.

Yeah, that's right..

She is ashamed.

I felt a sharp pain in my chest!

Naguguluhan ako sa nararamdaman ko.

Bakit ako nasasaktan ng ganito?

Humingi si Diana ng sorry sa nangyari, I told her that it was not her fault. Hindi ko alam kung bakit yun ang isinagot ko. Napakarami kong confusion ngayon araw nato!

Namayani saamin ang katahimikan.
This is awkward! Parang hindi namin nakikita ang isa't-isa.
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Until the door finally opened..
My mum!!!! Nandito si mommy! Kasama din nya si Mrs Trenor at ang teacher na nag-utos saaming umakyat sa stockroom! I hate him.

And wait.. there's a guy, someone familiar.. matangkad, may pagka-moreno ang kutis, may bangs ito na sakto lang ang haba..

Sumigaw ito "Dee!!!" at agad na lumapit kay Diana. So, Dee pala ang nickname nitong si Zedilla..
I know him from class, tama!
lagi ko din itong nakikitang kasama ni Diana..

they both hugged each other very tight, who the hell is this guy? Is he Diana's boyfriend? Tanong ko sa sarili ko.

Humihikbi itong yumakap sa mga braso ng lalake. Hinimas naman nito ang likod ni Diana.. trying to comfort her.

I felt another pang in my chest.
It was so sharp.. and painful.

I don't recognise this feeling..

It's a foreign feeling.

Hindi ko alam kung pano mag-react. "Please.. my dear heart, stop it!" I mentally scolded myself.

For the first time in my life I felt something so raw.. something so real.. it was frightening.

It was a feeling I have never felt before..

Tumibok ng mabilis ang puso ko.. nagseselos ba ako?

What?!!

How can I even think about that?!!

No!!!!!!! Why the hell would I be jealous!? I can't feel this..

It's not right!!

Tinanggal ko ang pagkakatitig sa couple na nasa harapan ko.

I'm still on the floor.. kayakap ko si mommy, she is so worried..

Gusto ko ng lumabas, tatayo na sana akong mag-isa ngunit nanghihina na naman ako. Baka dahil sa peanut allergy, o dahil sa dalawang taong nagyayakapan sa harapan ko... Hindi ko alam kung alin dun.

I'm tired of all the waiting, the seminar.. the noisy crowd.. the question that kept pestering my mind, "What does living means for you?"...

...A Life lived with love.. love.. love... My head is spinning.

I'm tired..

I had enough.