Soukoku Oneshot's

I Hate You

Angsty
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3rd POV
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How would one act on an emotion they never felt?

Some would act out and say they don't understand, and some would just try and ignore the need of that emotion. Try burying it some would breakdown, and some well some might just lose their mind becoming obsessed with this emotion. Wanting to figure it out, they say the mere human contains 27 different emotions.

How would an emotion drive someone mad?

That's were dazai and chuuya found themselves, this foreign emotion they felt drove them far from sanity.
" Does chuu hate me? " Dazai asked
Chuuya looked at him and then looked away
" Does dazai hate me? " Chuuya said
Dazai looked at him then looked away

" Of course I hate you "

They said at the same time then turned to each other
" Your annoying and stupid " Chuuya says
" Yeah well at least I'm growing how long have you been under 5'5 chuuya " Dazai says
They glared at each other, with eyes full of hate but that foreign emotion made their heart feel like it was falling apart.

They were at a bar and had their drinks, none in the bar a quiet bar just them and the bartender.
" You guys want another drink? " The bartender asked
Chuuya looked at the bartender
" Yes please " Chuuya thanks
Dazai nods but hasn't stop looking at chuuya

Who is turned away from him, looking at all the wine bottles the portrayed above the bar itself. The light hitting chuuya, and a memory then shows itself to dazai.

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"DAZAI! " Chuuya yelled
as he ran up to dazai, and grabbing his arm but dazai has already jumped into the river. Chuuya didn't let go of him, falling into the river as well both falling in. Dazai didn't try and drown, no chuuya was there he wouldn't drag chuuya down.

So he swam up gasping for air, and looked around and soon enough. Chuuya was in front of him, gasping for air just as he did a moment ago. He looked at dazai and hit him in the chest
" You fucking idiot! " Chuuya shouted
Dazai smiled warming like he always did, when chuuya showed he cared about him.
" You made a promise you fucking lair you didn't even last a week I just asked for a month! " Chuuya said
Once again hitting dazai both still in the river
" Chuu you were supposed to be in bed sick " Dazai said
He saw now that chuuya was in fact still sick, his pink cheeks even in this freezing water he feels so hot.

So dazai did the only logical thing, and well grabbed chuuya and quickly got both of them out the river.
" Chibi you should have stayed home! " Dazai said worried
" How do you expect me to stay in bed when your trying to kill yourself even if I'm sick I'M NOT JUST GOING TO LET YOU DIE! " Chuuya yelled
Dazai was hovering over him, and chuuya was grabbing at his clothes his grip on dazai only getting tighter.

Dazai knew chuuya needed to get it out, but he was stubborn and didn't want to hurt dazai if he said the wrong thing.
" I hate you! " Chuuya said
Dazai sat up and chuuya sat up after
" No you don't " Dazai said
Saying the only thing that'd help chuuya, and then chuuya tackled him now on top on dazai punching at his chest. Even in his sick state, he didn't care he was to stubborn to care about his health.
" I hate you I hate you I fucking hate you dazai! " Chuuya shouts
tears fill his eyes as he looked at dazai
" Why.....why did you make me fall in love with you " Chuuya says
Tears falling down, his cheeks falling into dazai's face.

He watched as chuuya broke down, in front of him he didn't say anything. Should he have said something, and if he did what would he have said?

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" Hey you there? " Chuuya asked looking at dazai
" You should have stayed home " Dazai said coldly
Chuuya was confused for a moment, but then realized what dazai meant he looked away.
" Shut up " Chuuya said
" You know you should have stayed home you were sick after all " Dazai said his cold tone not leaving
Chuuya gripped his glass
" Just shut it already damnit! " Chuuya says
In a whisper shout
" Remember what happened after that because you didn't stay home " Dazai said
And just like that a memory hit chuuya

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Dazai didn't say anything as chuuya, broke down in front of him he just watched in silence. Chuuya stood up wiping his tears, and then dazai stood up.
" Let's get you back home before your fever goes up " Dazai said
Chuuya didn't respond he just let dazai drag him, back to their shared apartment a few days later chuuya thought about what happened.

He didn't want to talk about it, he wouldn't dazai went back and acted like everything was normal. As if what chuuya said was all a joke, dazai knew it wasn't a joke and he just moved past it. Like a cold hearted person would, but chuuya wasn't ready for the mental impact that would have on someone.

That's what it does it tears someone apart slowly, and painfully chuuya tried to stop thinking about it but he couldn't stop thinking about it.
" GODDAMMIT DAZAI SHUT UP! " Chuuya yelled
From inside his room
Dazai singing a song about suicide, chuuya didn't go out much only when he had his missions. He felt empty like his heart was in constant pain
" Chuuya get out of your room once in awhile your going to die in here " Dazai said
Opening the door to chuuya's room, but what he saw was chuuya in the middle of almost taking a handful of pills. Dazai was shocked and dropped his book
" C-chuuya? " Dazai questioned
Chuuya dropped the pills that were in his hands, and looked down was he really about to become a suicide freek like dazai.

Wanting nothing more but to die
" Go away " Chuuya said quietly
" What happened? " Dazai asked
" Go away! " Chuuya shouted a little louder
" Chuuya what the fuck " Dazai said
Walking to chuuya and grabbing him by his wrist, pulling him up so he's standing cuts went down his wrist. Dazai then saw the empty look in chuuya's eyes
" Dazai let me go! " Chuuya said yanking his arm back braking out of dazai's grip

" Why? " Dazai asked
" BECAUSE DAZAI WHY NOT IF YOU WANT TO KILL YOURSELF THEN I CAN TO! " Chuuya yelled
" I see no point in living but you see so many things to live for! " Dazai shouted
Chuuya looked at him
" Yeah well the one thing I did want to live for obviously doesn't care! " Chuuya shouted back
" That's not an excuse! " Dazai shouted
" Shut up! All you ever do is thinking about dying and suicide and how much to want to die don't tell me what's an excuse or not! " Chuuya shouts

Tears already falling from chuuya's blue eyes
" I LOVE YOU AND YOU DON'T LOVE ME BACK WHAT ELSE CAN I DO DAZAI NOTHING BECAUSE ALL YOU ARE IS A COLD HEARTED BASTARD YOU COULD'VE AT LEAST SAID SOMETHING INSTEAD OF WHAT YOU SAID ANYTHING YOU COULD'VE SAID ANYTHING BUT THAT! " Chuuya yelled
Dazai looks at him
" What did you want me to do lie saying I love you to because I don't I don't love you in fact I hate you chuuya your annoying way to fucking stubborn and all you can do is complain! " Dazai shouts before storming out of chuuya's room
" I FUCKING HATE YOU! " Chuuya yells
One last time before, the apartment door slams shut and chuuya drops to the floor.

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Chuuya looked at dazai
" Like I said earlier I hate you " Chuuya said
Dazai watched as chuuya got up, and paid the bartender and left the bar. What dazai didn't know is later that night, chuuya was sent to the hospital due to an overdose on pills. What chuuya doesn't know Is that, when dazai found out he was the one to breakdown in tears.