Chapter 14: confusion

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"RICHIE WAIT!" Eddie screams as he runs and trips after him

~10 minutes prior~

(Richies pov)
As Eddie went on and on about his mom being on his dick all the time I found myself getting more and more agitated and I didn't know why. Every word he said just kept getting on my nerves and I honestly wanted to smash my head into a wall. I didn't want to listen to it. I mean I love Eddie but he was really bothering me for some reason-
Holy shit. I just said I love Eddie. As in love. As in FUCKING LOVE. Wtf. I mean I didn't say it but I THOUGHT it. Oh my god oh my god oh my god. I've never thought about that before. Ever. I just thought I had feelings for him. And even then I wasn't sure. No I can't think like that. He'll never like me back. I mean if he's gay his mom is gonna make him OD or something because "he's sick". part of me wants to love Eddie and the other part is still struggling with accepting the fact that I'm gay. I'm having a mental panic attack right now while Eddie is bitching about his mom. Then that brought me back to the conversation.

"AND THEN SHE YELLED AT ME" Eddie said emotionally (with hand motions), "SO I RAN AWAY FROM HER!"

Every second I was getting more and more angry and I couldn't stop it. My face starts to get pink...I can feel it. And my palms are sweaty. Until I made the sudden realization...I was jealous.

Super short chapter sorry 😕

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