Sonnets for Someones

future with her (reprise)

This has no structure, no rhyme scheme, nothing, nothing, nothing

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Despite all this, my heart still holds a touch of tenderness for you
My heart still aches and weeps for you
Missing you
Wishing that I had you

I hate it, cut the love from my ribs and leave me barren
Suck the poison of your presence from my skin and drain me of the compassion I hold for you
The desperation and affection that longs for you and being happy with you

You have singed, burnt, and torched the bridge that kept me tethered
Along with demolishing the accompanying river
Roared through the forest
Obliterated all life that breathed through the greenery and air

What did you do with the shoes that I gave you?
The bracelet?
The two journals?
The countless hours?
The two years worth of love letters you never delivered?

What about my heart?
I know you didn't take the love within it
For if you did, you would not have treated me as you had
The warmth would have burnt your fragile hands and you would have known to be kinder
Gentler
All the things that I had been for you

Rather, you took the surrounding muscle that protected that delicate artefact
Plucked it apart, still beating
Leaving the raw sinew straining within my frame

Did you love me?
Did I ever have you?
Was I strung along?
Was any of it real?
Who did I know?

"I want to be able to love you through your highs and your lows, from the tops of your curls to the bottoms of your toes"

Why couldn't you extend the same to me?

You wanted attention
You wanted to fill the void with it
I was a willing supplier
You didn't have to do all of that
You always had me
I wanted you
I wanted to be happy with you
I would have been there for you through anything and everything

Why couldn't you be good to me?

Why did this have to be how things ended?