I'm not going anywhere

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I'm curled up in my bed again, I can't even be bothered to put clothes on. I'm trying not to care about what my dad said but I can't get it out of my head, she's going to hate me ... And my brother. Everything feels all sharp and pointy like if I were to take my blanket off anything around me would cut me up into pieces I think my best idea is to go to sleep.

I wake up to my bedroom door creaking open but I don't move

"Babe...? Are you alright" I don't respond maybe he will think I'm asleep and leave me alone

"Oh..." He must believe it, I squint my eyes so I can still see. He pulls off his clothes and throws them in the basket he is gorgeous stood Infront of me naked but just like that he's gone and in the shower, I wait.

It has been about fifteen minutes and the water turns off, I quickly roll over to face away from his side of the bed he comes out, I here his bag in zip and a few seconds later zip back up, a minute later he slides into bed and pulls me against him

That's when I realised..... I'm naked.

"Oh shit" he mumbles but just pulls me in closer

"Baby" I slowly roll over and face him

"Hi" I whisper

"Your naked?" I nod

"I had a shower..." I sigh I'm still really upset obviously

" What's wrong" he pressed his forehead against mine

"My... Uh my um my dad came today" he shoots up

"What!?"

"Yeah he's been living in Ireland and wanted to see us but I told him I don't want him to see Will cause he's getting better and seeing him will probably set him back and I accidentally let it slip that he has a boyfriend.... Then he asked if mum new and I said no then he said not to tell her because she is extremely homophobic and now I feel like shit" I pull the quilt up over my neck

"River...." He hasn't called me by my name in weeks, tears start running down my cheeks

"It's fine.... I love you and... She can't stop me, I just won't tell her"

"Oh River I love you"

"She isn't here anyway, and when she is it's for a couple hours a day for a week or so.... We will just have to pretend"

"I can do that" he kisses my lips and I smile for the first time since he left this morning.

"Wanna help me tidy the kitchen?" He smiles and nods I climb out of bed covering my penis with my hands and putting on a jumper and a pair of boxer briefs.

Alex walks over and wraps his hands around my waist

"You're so hot" I can feel my face go red, I tuck my face in his neck to hide it.

"No" he twists me around and holds my face in one of his hands and studies over it making me go even redder

"You're beautiful" he gently kisses my lips before stepping away

"Let's go" I nod and we make our way down the stairs and to the kitchen

"How was your day then?" I ask as I write down the number of cans we have and what's in them

"It was okay mum was asking how everything is over here and uh if we were dating yet?" He becomes shy and drops his pink face

"Wait she knew?" I didn't realise he was out to his mother

"Ahaha yeah I came out to here when I was 13" he continues emptying the kitchen

"What? And you didn't tell me" we are best friends I thought we told each other everything.

"Of course not, I was in love with you and thought I would never have you so I didn't see a point at the time"

"Wait really?" His face has gone completely red now.

"I never realised" I'm shocked

" That was the plan, until the last week or so before we started dating and stuff I couldn't handle it anymore and after that party I just couldn't keep it in, and then I found out you liked me, I was so happy it's what I had wanted for 6 years" he smiles at me, I don't know what to say.

"What did you tell your mum" I'm so shocked, flattered bit shocked.

"That we were, she is so excited she was freaking out all day trying to pry into all the details"

"Ahaha your mum's great, I've always liked her"

"She loves you, I swear more than me" I laugh it's believable though when ever I go over she always makes a fuss about me and cooks my favourite meals and hugs me before her own son.

"Hey wanna play PlayStation later, we haven't played games in ages" he's not wrong we haven't done the stuff we used to in a while

"For sure, we haven't done any of the stuff we used to since we started dating"

"Yeah... I miss it, the new stuff we do is better though" he grins at me cheekly

"Oi" I throw a bag of pasta at him and laugh

"What it's the truth" he throws the bag back and I laugh

"I know, I know" he smiles and crawls towards me

"Not till were done" I put my hand over his mouth so he can't kiss me but he just gives me puppy dog eyes, I can't resist.

"Fine one kiss" I lean in and give him a kiss but he grabs the back of my head so I can't pull away, his lips move with mine he bites my bottom lip and I gasp giving him room to slide his tounge in, I can't stop. He kisses me until we run out of air and have to pull away, I lean my forehead against his and smile.

"Okay no more until we're done" I put my attention back to the pantry, he sighs but gets onto it aswell.

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"I'm homeeeee" the door slams and Willow yells out, we've been organising the pantry for about half an hour and we're just finishing up.

"Hey bud we're in the kitchen" he comes in soaking.

"Will oh my gosh" I grab him a towel from upstairs quickly so he can dry off before treading It anywhere else.

"Thanks" he takes it and rubs his head before taking off his jumper and wrapping it around his shoulders

"I'm just gonna have a quick shower, I'll be down in a minute"

"Okay, get warm mam would kill me if you get ill" he nods and runs off

"Your a good brother"

"Thanks man" I burst out laughing as soon as I say it, it's just natural instinct

"We no fix it say something else" I laugh even more

"Sorry mate it's instinct" I tease, he runs at me and throws me over his shoulder

"Oi no put me down" I yell as he carries me to the couch

"Okay" he throws me down and starts tickling me

"Stop it, no ah it hurts pleasee" I plead as he digs into my sides laughing

"Please ahaha babe, baby, gorgeous, love I'm sorry!" He stops and smiles

" That's better, now let's play games"

"What about dinner?"

"Uber eats" I agree I need a break, I grab a controller and give him one too.