mine (rd.benji)

- twenty two

aleyia

i left benji's house that day exhausted but happier than i had been in a long time. his words kept repeating in my mind.

"i think i'm falling in love with you."

every time i think of it my heart jumps. i wasn't gonna rush anything i liked how it was going. i was content with what was happening. i unlocked the front door to my house and locked it behind me. My dad wasn't home which i expected but it still upsets me.

i slowly walked up the stairs to my bathroom in no rush. i loved how things were going i just didn't want them to go down the way they did with cameron.

for the first time i think things were going perfect and i don't know when they are going to get fucked up.

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after a quick shower i was out cold. i couldn't remembered falling asleep. the tv was the first thing i scanned when i woke up.

are you still watching?
continue
back

i lightly tapped around my bed looking for phone around my head. i felt the cold screen touch the back of my hand and i picked it up slowly turning it on. i ignored the time and went straight to my notifications.

- messages

benji <3
are you okay? i haven't heard from you in a while
2:03 pm

benji <3
princess?
2:24 pm

benji <3
aleyia??
2:48 pm

benji <3
i'm coming over
2:51 pm

- snapchat

from ryan

from hannah r.

from benji (:

from cameron

jamarcus added you as a friend. say hi!

- twitter

ryan tweeted:
pee is stored in the balls.

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i liked ryan's tweet and turned off my phone i sat up n rubbed my eyes. i immediately jumped off my bed at the sight of benji opening my window.

"what the fuck you couldn't answer me?? i was scared you did something bad. i though you fucking hurt yourself." benji yelled at me as soon as he got into my room. i sat there frozen on the floor. i felt tears burning behind my eyes but i pushed them down.

"i'm sorry. i just woke up." i said quietly. he intimidated the life out of me i just sat there. we sat there just looking at eachother for a minute.

he got off the bed and hugged me. "i'm sorry. i didn't mean to scare you. i just get worried." 

i tightened my grip around him and he pulled me onto his lap on the bed. 

"baby your phone is going off."  he passed me my phone

father

"hey dad." i answered. still on benji's lap with my hand in his hair.

"hey kid i have some bad news."

"give it to me." i say moving my hand to benjis neck softly.

"i don't think i'm gonna make it home for thanksgiving hun."

"what. why?" i said quickly. dad has always been home for thanksgiving every year.

"its the job in north california. its taking longer than we though. it's playing a lot and we need the money mija. i'm sorry. i wish i could be home but we're running low. i can't even afford food to put on the table." i could hear the dread in his voice.

"it's okay dad. i know." i say softly.

"im so sorry mija. i have to go. i'm going as fast as possible."

"it's fine dad. i love you." i hung up before the rest.

"i-"

"i heard." benji cut me off. "you can always come to our thanksgiving.

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june 8, 2020
613 words

i've had no inspiration for two months there is a lot going on.

d ☁️