The whole day was getting spent like this . Awkward silence was spread across our shared room . Y/N tried her best to distract herself from me , while I was getting into deep trances about her sudden change in behaviour . Y/N was never like this . Whenever something unfortunate would happen , she would try to move on . I have seen that in her . But today , all she did was avoid eye contact with me , and stay silent .
I couldn't tolerate the utter emptiness between us , and so stood up to sit next to her . "Y/N ..... is something bothering you ?" , I asked as she diverted her gaze to the wall .
"Nothing is bothering me ." , she replied back coldly , while not meeting my eyes . Hurt engulfed my heart as she ignored my subtle touch on her shoulder .
"I'm sorry for bothering you earlier . I bet you are pissed at that ." , I said while looking down , feeling guilty . Because of my behaviour , Y/N had surely been affected .
"It was never your fault , Jungkook . My presence is what a fault is known as ." Those words shot my heart . Was she blaming herself and her holy presence just because of a glass breaking incident ? Such an insignificant matter would never hurt her , but today , it was doing so .
"Why are you saying that ? Are you deeply hurt because you just broke a glass ? And spilled coffee ?" Y/N darted her gaze at me as she looked at me with disbelief . It seemed like she expected me to understand , but how could I figure out her thoughts ? She never shared anything about that to me .
Tears filled in her eyes as she quickly blinked them away . She was fearing to break down in front of me . Why was she fearing ?
"You would never understand what I feel , Jungkook . Your just a fellow Math teacher , who isn't getting his salary . I know that's illegal , but in some way , you could never understand my issue ."
I never thought of Y/N thinking like that about me . Guilt was eating me up as whatever she told , made me feel that all was my fault . Maybe I was the reason behind her sadness .
I decided to leave her alone , and so , I rushed down the stairs , to my mother's room . There she was , stitching a sweater for me , like always . I know that Y/N's sadness was because of us both. But she was my mother . I could share anything to her .
Falling down to her feet , I let those unspoken tears of sadness and guilt fall down . I was surely making my mother's dress damp , but I knew she would console me in any way or other .
I cried after a long time . All the bad flashbacks hit me . The time when I would get bullied for my accent and lisp . The time when I would get humiliated in middle school for all the rapid hormonal changes in me . The time when I would get humiliated by my relatives for bringing the lowest scores . The time I would get bullied in high school for looking like a man , with a baby face . All those bitter moments hit me . Including when my father's death's major cause was me .
Flashback :
1st June , 2014
"Mrs. Jeon , we are sad to admit the fact that your husband is suffering from Pneumonia . You have to take utmost care of him ." , said the doctor , while flipping through the reports . There was my mother , trembling in fear by seeing her husband in this state .
It all was when I was 16 . Relatives would taunt me for always being engrossed into stuff like Anime , cooking and boxing . They aspired me to become a doctor , engineer or teacher . But now , being a teacher , I haven't even been paid .
My father was mentally exhausted by my academic performances and daily complaints of neighbours saying that I bet their son up . Soon , the situation started getting worse . I would give the worst performances at school , I would always beat boys up who would trouble me and Jimin . Jimin was the only boy who would always stay by my side .
"It's all because of Jungkook . If you had kept your fellow , useless hunk in control , he would have not caused this to happen ." , snorted my aunt . I looked up at my mother , who was still shaking in fear and trauma . Guilt engulfed me .
"I know right . This useless punk ruined our family . All the relations get lacked because of him . He's a shame ." , muttered my uncle .
I wasn't going to just sit and listen . Standing up in fury , I ran till the washroom , to then lock myself up . I cried , sobbed , and what not did I do . The same guilt affected me now . When Y/N told me that .
9th August , 2014
Huffing and puffing , all of us rushed to the hospital as my father recieved a seizure . All he could do was breathe , breathe and tell us that this was his last time . Running along the stretcher , tears of hurt and guilt ran through my eyes as I saw my father in this state , because of me .
Today was the semester end exams result , and I had miserably failed . All the relatives had gathered together to see my result , when my father got a seizure while screaming at me . His scream turned into breaths , and all we could do was rush to the hospital .
Hours and hours had passed , but there was no sign of any news . The relatives kept taunting me , but I stayed , just to see my father .
The doctor soon arrived , with a disapproved face set . I stood up to rush to him .
Sighing , he announced the unfortunate news . "Sorry , but we couldn't do anything . He's no more ."
I heard my mother falling on the floor , letting out a loud and tearful sob . All the relatives gathered . Some cried , some cursed , but all of that was because of me .
I was the reason . The reason behind everything .
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Fanfiction[COMPLETED] A math teacher, and a student, falling in love with each other while having many turbulent experiences in their lives due to their family issues. Can their love blossom and make everything special, and can she learn new things, or get t...