darkness. all i see is darkness. the darkness that follows after i've managed to calm down the thoughts that race around my head. the thoughts i assumed were good for me. the thoughts i trusted. the thoughts that keep me up at night with their harsh critics. the harsh words that my thoughts can come up with scares me. the fears that my thoughts will take over how i see life.
that's why i slip back to the darkness. the calming time when my head is silent and i can relax. the time when i can sleep. the time i can use to help my thoughts become nicer. the darkness is my safe place yet i still fear what comes after. "will my thoughts be kind today ?" i ask myself but i already know the answer. " no they will not they will continue to be hateful until you've changed to their standards " i say as i cry. the darkness soon follows and the cycle continues.
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the mind of a teenager.
Randomwhat more to say then feelings. i have no filter when it comes to my feelings so i decided why not write them because i like writing. sometimes i may go too far so TW
