The Heartless Gangster In 1892 (HIATUS)

Kabanata 33

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KABANATA 33

Dream

"B-Bakit mo ako hinalikan?" He asked me like I did something ridiculous.

Napakurap-kurap ako at inisip ang ginawa ko. Well, it doesn't matter to me though but with his reaction it's like a big deal to him. Tumikhim ako at mabilis na tumayo tsaka lumayo sakanya ng kaunti. I turned my back on him and face palmed.

Ngayon ko lang din na-realized ang ginawa ko. I mean it's not big deal though to me but....to him it is. Crap! Why did I forgot that they're conservative nga pala! Darn it! He might misunderstood me for what I did!

Ugh. Baka isipin niyang may gusto ako sakanya or baka isipin niyang agressibo at mapusok akong babae?

Wait—so what? Ano bang paki-alam ko sa iisipin niya sa akin? Why does it bother me, anyway? The heck.

Huminga ako ng malalim at pinakirandaman siya. He still silent though. Tsk! The heck is wrong with me doing that to him?! As if he'd buy the reason bakit ko iyon ginawa sa kaniya. Even so, for him it's still not inappropriate for a girl like me to kiss him unless we're in a relationship—ugh this is just so frustrating.

Tumikhim ako at hinarap siya pabalik. I remained my stern look like it doesn't affect nor bother me at all.

"Uh, a-ayon sa aking lolo noon ay nababawasan daw ang sakit pag-hinalikan ang parteng may pasa." seryosong wika ko.

Napakurap-kurap siya at nagtatakang napa-tanggo na lang. Namumula at hindi pa rin siya maka-tingin sa'kin. Tss, nahihiya pa siya?

Isang katahimikan ang namayani sa amin. Hindi siya nagsalita hindi rin naman ako nagsalita. The wind blew my hair as it dances with it. Sumulyap ako kay Leandro at ang malungkot nitong mukha ang nakita ko. The heartbeat of my heart became faster and suddenly sadness immediately crept within me that it made me flinch. I averted my eyes off of him.

What the fvck was that?!

I touched my left chest where my heart is. What is this feeling? I don't understand.

Bumuntong hininga ako at sumulyap na lang sa lawa. I don't know what's with this lake but it does really mesmerized me besides that I feel something deep in my heart. It's somewhat sadness and agony. I shook my head. Maybe, I'm just paranoid. Kung ano-ano na lang ang pinagsasabi ko.

"A-Ahh.."

Mabilis akong napalingon kay Leandro nang marinig itong dumaing sa sakit. Nakita ko siyang hawak-hawak ang kanyang ulo ng kanyang dalawang kamay. Agad ko siyang dinaluhan. Napaluhod ang isang tuhod ko sa kanyang harapan upang makapantay siya. Hindi naman masakit sa tuhod dahil mayroong damo naman sa lupa.

My forehed creased in confusion. Wait...what the fvck happened to him? He's okay naman kanina lang! Mayroon ba siyang sakit na iniinda? O siguro dahil nagsapakan sila ng papa niya at naalog utak niya?

Naikot ko na lang ang mga mata ko sa mga pinagsasabi ko. Bobo.

"Ano'ng nangyari sa iyo? Hoy?!" Nag-alala kong bulalas—wait did I just say 'nag-alala'?

Iniling ko ang ulo ko at hindi na lang 'yon pinansin. What's more important now is to know if Leandro is okay or not and if I should need to bring him to the hospital.

I looked at him and touched his left hand using my right hand while my left hand is on his shoulder. He really looked pained and more like something has triggered him that made his head ache or nah? I'm not really sure, though.

"A-Ahh!" Muling daing niya. I panicked! Hindi ko alam kung ano ang gagawin ko. Sa huli ay yinakap ko na lang siya, bahala na kaysa naman hayaan siyang mamatay rito. Hindi ko rin naman alam kung paano maiibsan ang sakit ng kanyang ulo.