INTEZAAR

10. || Hawayein ||

"Biryani aur Kebab Aapi banengi." Hadiya said with finality.

"Unke haathon mein choot lga hai Hadiya" Sadia opposed, knowing very Seher will make all the food by herself, even with an injured hand.

"Main bana dungi" Seher replied.

"Aree ek hi baat mein mat lage rahon, laadon apko jo theek lage woh kariye magar apna khayal bhi rakhiye. Kya haal hogya apka yeh? Kyu Rubina Begum khayal nahi rakh payi ap mere Laadon ka?" This time Daddo have to interfere, this topic is hanging here for last half an hour.

"Ammi jaan, apki Laadon nahi sunti thi mera kehna" Rubina complaind. Seher did take proper care Of Rubina in Delhi, but that is not not certainly applicable on herself. One can see she not only loss a few pounds but also seems to be weak to.

"Aur apne bhi jane diya bhabhi jaan, yeh koi baat nahi huyi." Sadia taunted, she is not going to leave any chance to show her anger.

"Ab jab tak waha hon, Laadon ka khayal rakhon tab tumhi Sadia, waise bhi yahi toh kaam hai na tumhara." Daddo said. Back when Seher used to live here, Sadia always made sure that she had her lunch on proper time. She always treated her like the way she should be treated. Anyone may forget for once and treat Seher like one of them, but Sadia always remember who Seher is to this Haweli.

"Apki Laadon bohut badi hogyi hai Ammi jaan, uske faislon mein ab hm kaha kuch bol sakte hai." Sadia in no way is gonna stop. And this made Seher leave the hall , going to kitchen she started working on the lunch, Hadiya followed behind her.

"Sadia, aapa yeh sab na bole" Rubina begum asked her this time. There are things which we can't change, and digging them will only hurt us more. Talking about the past does the same. And making Seher upset is not something any one of them wants.

"Kyu bhabhi kuch galat bola hai maine?" Sadia complained. She is not completely wrong. Her anger is valid, but Seher was right too.

"Sadia , woh saalon baad yaha ayi hai, usko mat bolo kuch." This time Praveen Begum said.

"Ammi usko humare dard ka bhi andaza hona chahiye."

"Aur uskey dard ka kya Aapa? Hum sab ko khud ka dard samjh ata hai lekin Seher ke dard ka kya. Uske toh ansu bhi nahi nikalte ab, woh bhi sukh gaye hai." Rubina is right. Everyone here felt a similar kind of pain when Seher left, but the pain Seher Mirza bear with a smiling face is something one can never understood. All her life she have loved one person,and kept waiting for him but when finally they were going to start a life together, destiny played it's own game.

"Uske dard ka toh hume andaza bhi nahi hai Sadia." Praveen Begum always loved everyone equally, but for Seher she have some special place in her heart. Seher made her haweli a home.

"Dard isi baat ka h Ammi, usne hume apne dard batne tak key kabil nahi samjha." Sadia said.

"Agar bol bhi deti toh kya hum kuch badal pate Aapa?" Rubina asked with tears.

"Sadia beta Laadon ko sunane sey acha usse baat karo, apni Laadon hi hai woh." Praveen begum asked her daughter. It is better to let go, sometimes holding on gives only pain.

"Woh karungi hi main Ammi jaan."

"Aur yeh Alizeah ko bolo zubaan pe thoda kabu kare. Aj kya sab bol rahi thi." The incident few minutes ago is not something they will let go. But since Seher asked them to, they kept quite. Alizeah left for her room as always.

"Bilal ne bataya wo ghar gyi thi kal." Sadia informed then, though it is not needed but still.

"Humari Seher kahi bhi jaye, hum uss par pura yakeen hai. Seher shaan hai iss haweli ki."

"Sach me Ammi. Dekha nahi kaise ate hi sb pehle jaisa hone laga hai." Sadia smiled this time.

"Ammi jaan, Ahad ata hoga, uski flight land hogyi hai, aur saath mein Zain bhi arha hai. Kal nahi apaye dono ko kuch kaam tha." Rubina said.

"Chalo ab ye haweli phir se achi lagegi."

"Aur uska kya?" Sadia asked.

"Pta nahi Aapa."

"Meri baat huyi Haider sey, uske taraf se koi jawab nahi aya hai." Daddo said.

"Usse pata bhi Hadiya ka nikkah horha hai?"

"Maulum nahi yeh bhi"

"Aey Allah sab theek kare." They have only hope, that everything will be right.

"Ye oilment hai laga lo" Sadia gives it to Seher in the balcony.

"Theek hai, iski zarurat nahi hai"

"Seher there are some scars which will all could see, you are not able to hide every scar of yours from us."

"Aunty.."

"Seher, I really felt bad when you left, even hated you for that. But then again, I know what you had been through. I don't blame you for anything but I feel it's right to be angry with you."

"I know Aunty."

"Laadon..

"Jee Aunty?"

"Aj se apka khayal rakhna mujhe"

"Jee Aunty.

"And listen, ignore Alizeah. Woh kuch bhi bolti hai." With that Sadia left. Standing on the balcony, the cool breezes messed up her open hairs, like the past.

"Baal kyu bandh leti ho, bola hai na khule rakha karo, ache lagte hai" he said in a rude way.

"Irritation hoti na." Seher replied with a pout

" Toh hone doon, I really don't care. Meri Seher ke baal atleast yaha hamesha khule hone chahiye."

"Kyu bhala, yaha kya hai?"

"Here the breezes should know who are you, whom you belong to. The only thing I life about this place, it's cold breezes. So every time, I am not here, these breezes will touch your face giving you the feeling of my presence in them, they will play will your hairs like I do, reminding you how much I love them."

"I will always keep them, for you." a promise she will always keep.

Sitting here alone is no less than a nightmare to her. Yet a bitter truth of her life. You know the feeling of losing the one who meant the world to you, no one can ever put it into words, no matter how much they try.

Today, as Seher sit here with the breeze peppering kisses on her face, she can feel his presence among them. A lone tear made it's way out of her brown orb's, but dried too soon, she knows he sucked it up just like old times. She smiled, listening carefully to the breezes that touch her hairs just as if he is playing them, all she want is this to last a little longer this time.

The call from downstairs pulled me up and bitter reality drowned me again. Depths of my love have long lost it's rights . A smile started shining on her face as she looked forward to the view. Everything is same just not they this time.