Love Me Then (Then Series #1)

Chapter 33

Chapter 33

Missing him

I'm looking at my brother while we are eating our dinner. I still can see that what happen between him and Ate Chloe bothers him. Bakit kaya ganun lahat ng tao nagkakaproblema pagdating sa love. To the point na sasayangin na nila yung buhay nila pagdating dun. Kaya minsan natatawa na lang ako sa mga tao na nagsasabi na 'di ko kaya ng wala siya ikamamatay ko'. The heck, ipinanganak ka sa mundo ng mag-isa nabuhay ka ng ilang taon ng wala yung taong yun bakit nasasabi nila na hindi nila kayang mabuhay ng wala yung taong yun. Choose love that will help you to be a better person. That will help you learn a lot of things.

And most importantly a love that you are willing to sacrifice that someone with a better reason. Not a lame one but because you know that you need to. The love that you are willing to let him go for a better reason.

Pero alam ko naman na iba-iba kung paano magmahal ang isang tao kaya hindi ko din sila maisisi kung bakit nagkakaganun sila because of love. 

But I can't imagine sacrificing Gray even if it's a better reason. Just imagining it now pains me.

"Hey... Zai!" siniko ako ni Raffy na nasa tabi ko kaya napatingin ako a kanya. "Tulala ka?" umiling lang ako sa kanya at sumulyap muna ulit kay Kuya bago ipagpatuloy pagkain ko.

We just finish eating our dinner at nauna ng nagpaalam si Kuya sa kanila na magpapahinga na at may jetlag pa din daw siya but I know na palusot lang yun kaya sinundan ko siya hanggang sa kwarto niya.

"Kuya!" sigaw ko sa kanya ng isasarado niya na sana yung pinto.

"What?" hindi ko na siya sinagot at pumasok na lang ng kwarto niya.

"What do you need? Zai, I need to rest."

"Tell me, lahat ng nararamdaman mo ngayon sabihin mo sakin." I told him looking so serious.

"You know what Zai, it's not true that I'm not good with girls, it's just that I'm finding someone who will make me do a move. Yung alam kong matatagalan ko. That will make me commit."

"And you find her." I remember what Ate Chloe said to me before that my brother is bothering him nonstop. Akala ko talaga nung una trip niya lang talaga si Ate Chloe and it's not serious but hearing his reason's now. I don't know anymore. Why do I even care right? I have my own love life right there. Bakit pinoproblema ko problema ni Kuya sa buhay niya. What the fuck? 

Hindi ko na pinake alaman pa si Kuya at pumunta na lang sa kwarto ko para tawagan si Gray. That man. Minsan talaga hindi ko pa din magets yan si Gray e. Imagine nung umamin siya sa'kin iwan ba naman ako. Tapos ngayon na sabi ko na miss ko siya binabaan ako ng phone. So what will he do next huh!?

"Answer the phone you freak!" inis na sabi ko sa sarili ko habang inaantay ko na sumagot siya. He is online but why he's not answering.

"Hello!" sigaw ko ng sagutin niya yung phone.

"You're really good at pissing me off huh!? Graycer Alder Cartercliff. Am I really your girlfriend or just your friend na pwede mong babaan ng phone agad-agad!!"fFeeling ko naubusan ako ng hininga ng isigaw ko yun sa kanya through phone.

"Zai, si Casper 'to naiwan niya dito sa office niya yung phone." I sighed heavily before answering.

"You are in his office?"

"Yes, may dinaan lang ako."

"Tell to my boyfriend right there to call me or else. The nerve of that guy!" frustrate na sabi ko at binaba na yung phone. Okay naman na ako kanina while we're eating dinner pero naalala ko na naman pagbaba niya ng phone without saying anything. I'm not mad. I'm just frustrated dahil ginawa niya yun kung kailan gusto ko siyang makita. I'm missing him. But he just.... Whatever.