Stuck In My Rainbow Identity

23

Chapter 23

"Lalake ako, babae siya. Mas bagay talaga."

I can't hear anything but shehyee's voice, it was his line in 'Huwag siya' with Donnalyn Bartolome.

Is it illegal to love someone with the same gender? Is it a curse? Because a Man was just destined to a woman?

Because they are made to build a family?

I saw something in social media, someone asked about the importance of Gay in society. Someone answered that Gay was important because we gave laughter, We provide happiness and we're making everyone escape from reality.

But is it just the happiness we can offer? Can't we offer more for us to be accepted by our lover's parents? By our own parents?

Tony gave me a day that I will never forget, the day that I will cherish for the rest of my life. He makes me feel special and appreciated, He made my dreams come true. But just like a dream, I woke up with the reality that Tony was really for Elisha.

That a Husband deserves a wife, not another husband.

I don't know but I didn't cry, I was hurt and broken but I don't have enough tears to shed today.

'You're disgusting! Being a Gay was disgusting!'

I can hear my Dad's voice...

'Sa panahon ngayon, wala nang magmamahal sa baklang ganiyan ang itsura.'

I can hear Tayler's voice...

'I love Rans but Melody's here... I can still see her eyes... She's alive..."

I can hear Tony's voice...

Their words ripped my heart, their statements made me doubt my existence and their words gave me an indication to close my heart.

I was so hurt and I don't know what to do anymore.

I understand that a Man shouldn't be with another Man but I can't understand kung paano sabihin ni Tony na mahal niya ako at mahal niya si Melody.

Pero ikakasal siya.

Mahal niya ako pero 'yong alaala ni Melody, nandyan pa.

Nasaan si Elisha? Nasaan siya sa puso ni Tony?

Nasaan siya?

Bakit siya at hindi ako?

"A 200 million pesos worth of the wedding gown?!" Sabay sabay nilang tanong habang sumisipsip sa mga milktea nila, tinaasan ko sila ng kilay bago sumipsip sa kape ko.

Ain't a fan of milk tea, so Whatever.

We're currently in Amber's Milktea shop in Makati, balita ko nga ang gandang mag-asawa ang may-ari nito. Sinearch ko sa Facebook 'yong mag-asawa at halos lumuwa 'yong mata ko dahil sa kagandahan nila.