The Burning Desire

Chapter 18

A week has already passed since Jordan and I got home from our trip in his province, Cantabria.

I am still in an awe. I am still trying to digest what happened to us during our stay there.

Ngumuso ako nang maalala kung ano ang nangyari noong gabing iyon. My cheeks blushed as that heated moment flashed across my mind.

Iniling ko ang aking ulo.

I've always promise to myself that I will only give myself to my husband. Iyon ang gusto ko. I want my virginity to be a gift for the man, I am going to spend my forever.

But that didn't happen.

And that's when it everything sink in.

Jordan and I have done it. I had sex with Jordan!

I do not regret what happened to me and Jordan that night, not even an inch. Because I know that I've given myself to the man I love and that is something to be cherished.

Jordan and I may not be wedded now but maybe... we can in the future? Pero kung hindi ay okay lang dahil ang mahalaga kahit na hindi ko natupad ang pangako ko sa aking sarili na sa asawa ko iyon ibibigay ay nagawa ko namang ibagay ang pagkababae ko sa lalaking mahal ko na alam kong mahal din ako.

I was too sore the next day after we did it. Mabuti na lamang at tanghali ang alis namin noon. Jordan brought two drivers with him so we cant rest.

Jordan was the one who washed me up! I was so embarrassed while he was cleaning me. Masyadong masakit ang aking pagkababae para tumayo.

Hindi pa ata kami makakauwi noon kung hindi niya ako binuhat pababa sa kotse.

Isang linggo na din kaming wala masyadong interaksyon ni Jordan. We can only communicate through text and call or whenever my cousins invites him to come over.

We don't want to aroused any speculations from our friends. Lalo't na dahil sabay kaming nawala sa loob ng tatlong araw noong nakaraan.

"Saan ka galing noong nakaraan?" Siningkitan ako ng mata ni Kendall.

Nasa bahay kami ngayon nina Kendall. Nakaupo kaming anim na magpipinsang babae sa mahabang sofa nila habang nanonood ng Grey's Anatomy.

Dahil sa tanong na iyon ni Kendall ay napabaling sa akin ang iba ko pang pinsan. Kiara paused the playing episode just to hear my answer.

"Sa Cantabria nga, I visited Lavender." Ilang ulit na na iyon ang sagot ko sa kanila pero paulit-ulit pa din ang tanong nila.

"Lavender?" Raika questioned my answer. "We don't know any Lavender."

"Oo nga. If you're friends with her then why don't we know her? You're not that sociable kaya paano ka naman magkakaroon ng kaibigan bukod sa amin?" Dugtong ni Kiara na parang naging detective na ngayon.

"So I can't have any friends besides you? Besides, she's one of my childhood friends." Umirap ako sa kanila at inagaw ang remote mula kay Kiara at pinindot ang play button upang makanood muli.

"Hmm?" Nagdududang sagot sa akin ni Kiara.

Pungalumbaba siya sa harapan ko.

"Come on guys! Cut Reign, some slacks!" Mabuti na lamang at hindi na dumagdag pa si Nyxie sa mga 'yon.

I smiled at her as my thank you and she smiled back at me.

"Okay, if you say so." Hindi pa din kumbinsado ang tinig ni Kendall nang sumagot siya.

This is the problem with my cousins. They do not know the word 'privacy'. Hindi titigil ang mga iyan hangga't mayroong bumabagabag sa kanilang isipan, lalo na si Kendall.