The Omega

Chapter 28

I took out an onion, celery stalks, and some carrots. Jaxton wordlessly pulled out a cutting board and knife for me, placing them on the counter before stepping away and letting me start chopping everything. I heard clanging as he grabbed a large pot and placed it on the island.   

We worked together in silence, Jaxton grabbing a rotisserie chicken from the fridge and started tearing in up, placing it into a bowl. I turned on the stove and started sauteing the vegetables with olive oil and garlic. Jaxton handed me a wooden spoon to stir it all with before going to the pantry and grabbing chicken stock.

The routine of cooking made it easier to relax and Jaxton put on some classical music that I hummed along to. I stirred the vegetables slowly while adding in some spices Jaxton had handed me. I hated how easy it was with him, I resented how comfortable I was with him.

Jaxton poured in the stock while I stirred and I could feel how tense he was to be near me. If nothing had happened he would have his hand on my back or be giving me soft kisses. Jaxton put in the chicken, his chest grazing my back as he leaned over me.

I tried to resist the urge to lean into his warmth, but it hurt me not to comfort him after he was so clearly worried about us. I didn’t let myself give in, no matter how much I wanted to. I stirred the soup one last time before putting on the cover and walking away from Jaxton to sit on the counter.

“We should talk,” Jaxton finally said. He walked over to me and waited for my response.

“What is there to say?” I asked quietly, “You lied to me because you had to, but you also chose me and protected me because you had to.”

“I chose you because I wanted you, I didn’t lie about how I felt about you, I didn’t lie about the little things I told you, I had to lie about my past, but the tattoos are the oath we all took to join the service. I didn’t want to lie and now that you know who I really am I won’t have to lie anymore. I can tell you everything.”

I looked away from him, how did I know that he wasn’t lying now? Jaxton let out a small whimper and my heart broke. Could I let myself love him? Or would I just be setting myself up for more pain?

I heard Jaxton’s breathing speed up and I turned my head back to him. His body was shaking and I let myself stop thinking about all of my fears when I saw this powerful male breaking in front of me.

I dropped down from the counter and tucked myself into him. He reacted instantly, his arms coming around to pull me tightly against his warm body. I nuzzled into his chest and started rubbing his back, helping calm his panicked mind.

“When I was younger,” Jaxton said softly, “I would have panic attacks and shift, running to the nearest dark place and trying my best to just breathe. I had been dropped off at a church and was raised there till I was 10, then the Elders came for me and started my training to become an assassin for them. For our missions we are judge, jury, and most importantly executioner.”

I listened to him quietly, my heart aching for the male who held me like I was the only way he could breathe. I remembered the soup after a while and tried to pull out of his arms. That only made him hold me tighter and let out a pitiful whimper, a sound that he probably hadn’t made in a very long time.

I twisted in his arms so my back was to his chest, placing my hands over his. I waddled us over to the stove slowly, pulling his heavy form along with me. I stirred the soup and made sure it wasn’t boiling.

Jaxton loosened his grip on me slightly after realizing that I hadn’t changed my mind, and that I wasn’t going to run away from him screaming my head off. I leaned back into him, feeling his tense muscles relax against me. I turned the stove down to low and started waddling my male and I into the living room.

I turned around and started backing into Jaxton so he would sit down on the couch, pulling me down with him. I grabbed the controller and handed it to him snuggling into his warmth that helped fight off the cold. Oooo I should put on the fireplace that would help.

I kissed Jaxton on his cheek and eased myself from his arms, I quickly went over to turn on the fireplace, before heading upstairs. I grabbed the large comforter from Jaxton’s bed and wrapped it around myself. I went into the living room and paused, looking at the tense male on the couch.

He was half shifted, clearly struggling to let me out of his sight. It would probably be awhile before he realized that I’ve made my choice and I’m not going anywhere. I just don’t want him to lie to me anymore. I want to be able to trust him.

I watched as he slowly got control of himself again and walked closer to my now completely human male, the wolf in him taking a backseat again. I waddled over to him and spread out the blanket so it would cover the both of us.

Maybe I shouldn’t forgive him so easily, but I just didn’t want to be the one to break him. Jaxton pulled me into his chest, letting me rest my head on his shoulder. I was comfortable with him, I couldn’t help myself from touching him whenever I could. Did that make me weak?

Jaxton hadn’t bothered to put anything on the TV, the only sound was the rustling of the blanket. I looked into his pale hazel eyes, sadness making my stomach drop. What will I do if he lies to me again?

“What are you thinking about Adalyn?” Jaxton asked softly.

“I just can’t stand being lied to Jaxton.” I sighed leaning away from my place against his neck. “I can’t stand it, I’m hurt, I feel so… used. I wanted to be yours and now… I just don’t know if that can happen anymore. I can’t trust you like I had, and to me trust is everything.”

“I know…” Jaxton looked away from me, guilt marring his handsome features. “I just didn’t have any other choice. I didn’t know I would want you this badly, and if I had told you what we were really doing it could’ve destroyed what we were working for. Seven years work might’ve been flushed down the drain. I couldn’t take that risk no matter how much I wanted to.”

“I know Jaxton, I understand it… but it doesn’t make the hurt go away. I can understand and I will eventually trust you the way I did, but not right now.” Jaxton nodded, and I leaned back against him, trying to relax again.

Jaxton put on M*A*S*H again, using my favorite show against me. I watched a few minutes of it before getting up to check on the soup, the heavenly smell making me smile. Soup is my favorite.

I took out a spoon and tasted some of the liquidly goodness. I hummed happily when I deemed it good enough, heading into the pantry to grab some orzo noodles to add to the soup. I stirred the soup humming to myself watching the ingredients swirl.

I waited for a few minutes for the noodles to cook, ignoring the mutterings coming from the living room. After a few minutes Jaxton came into the kitchen, the blanket wrapped around his large shoulders. He is so stinkin adorable, how can this silly male make me so happy?

“Are you alright princess?” Jaxton asked carefully, pulling me into him so we were cocooned in the blanket together.

“Yeah, I’m okay, just hungry.” I stared at the now covered soup, my stomach gurgling.

“You’d tell me if something was wrong right?” Jaxton loosened his arms as I stepped out of his embrace, turning to face the worried looking male behind me.

“Jaxton you should already know what’s wrong,” I shook my head, a frown forming on my face, “In the last few days I slaughtered my ex, almost mated myself to an assassin, was able to make people tell the truth and move only when I wanted them to.

I watched you rip out the throat of someone I thought was your friend, I had two wolves conspiring to kill me. I had my view of Omegas change completely and I have no idea what I’m supposed to be!” My voice turned shrill and I started taking deep breaths to calm myself. God I really just need to shift, I hadn’t been able to really stretch my legs in a long time.

“Ada… I’m so sorry I dragged you into this mess.” Jaxton looked down at me sadly, guilt eating at him.

“I just need to run right now… Can you take me to the edge of the forest please? I haven’t been able to shift in a while and it’s making me antsy.” Jaxton nodded turning off the stove

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