Azula Flickering Hope

Punishment

Azula POV

I'm cold but it's different this time

My Body is shivers despite it being warm it feels like I've been caught up in a snow storm barried six feet below the ice

I don't feel like moving its easier to just curl up in a ball since they didn't give me a blanket

I curled myself up as tight as possible in the corner trying to bring back any remaining heat

I don't bother pulling back my hair, now thrown about and covering my eyes the strands are choppy and dry and I can't stop fiddling with them.

no matter how hard I try theres no flame I've never been so angry and yet not a single Flicker

The gaurd comes by to bring me my food and then later to bring it back, I don't feel like eating anymore

I don't want to eat knowing they made it and expect me to I owe them nothing

I miss my bed I could barricade myself in pillows and blankets and drift off and pretend I was a polar bear dog hibernateing until I felt better

Father didn't like when I went thrue these phases always told me how when he was a child he spent every day training and never felt like somedays weren't worth gatting out of bed for

Every day is an opportunity for growth

I miss him

He was the only person I could ever look up to and he's the only faimly who's ever loved me and still does

I earned his love fair and square and now I've let him down what would he say if he saw me now

The gaurds name is Kai he's been easier to deal with when he doesn't say a word to me

The day they took my fire he came in to give me dinner and saw me quietly crying and trying over and over to make just the smallest flame slamming my fist into the padding of the wall

Looks like you got what you deserved finally

I wanted to find a comeback but I was to tired I wanted to burn a hole straight through his chest but I couldn't do that either

I think five days have passed I'm not sure anymore I've lost track of time
it doesn't really matter in here

I don't want to be here anymore I don't want to be anywhere anymore

I'm useless I failed I can't bend anymore what am I good for now I'm just wasted potential how could I ever dream to be fire lord if I can't even bend fire.

all I do is sit and count and sleep all day and then The nurse comes in and out like clock work

They don't give me my medication, good that stuff made me feel murkey anyway

My stomach growled when the plate of food came in and I willed myself to eat something

I took off the bread and water and and took a few sips and bites My lips are chapped and they feel nice on the water

I put the plastic cup back on the tray and finished the rest of the bread but left the minced meat alone it didn't look tampered with it just looked putrid

I was taught how to tell if a food was poisoned from a young age after a failed assassination when I was eleven

News spread of Zukos banishment and I geuss some people didn't want me on the throne it didn't work of course

They bribed one of the servants to poison my food Her name was Katsumi and It should have been obvious but I geuss I liked her

It was just me and father at the dinner table and the sevents waiting for any request