Being Smart doesn't always mean a happy home life. Running away from the past seemed to be the only way. A new state, a new job and a beautiful co-worker who is just as smart as she is. Can they make it work or will the past come back to bite them...
TW: Flash backs to childhood. Sexual assault is mentioned.
The ride home was filled with your occasional sniffle. Spencer's hand never left yours the whole ride.
"You don't have to do this" He finally said
"Yes I do Spence. She knows too much." You felt the lump in your throat come back. "She cant keep hurting others. You know that."
"Babydoll if you think you can do this, I support you, but no matter what I support you." He squeezed your hand.
"Spence I don't have a choice. She's killing." You sobbed.
Spencer pulled into the parking lot of your apartment. He put the car in park and turned to face you.
Putting his hands to your face, wiping away the tears that kept falling.
"It's going to be okay. I promise. I will be right beside you the entire way. What shes doing isn't okay and I know you feel out of control but I promise it will all be okay. Are you sure you can do this?" His tone soft. It was like he felt if he spoke any louder you would break beneath his hands.
"With you, yes." You looked at your hands.
Spencer smiled and leaned in to kiss your forehead.
FLASHBACK
You ran away and kept running until you got to Catherines house. You knew that Cat always left her window unlocked just in case. You walked to her rook and climbed up the secret ladder she left for you. You pushed the window open and climbed through.
"Cat. Cat wake up" you shook her.
"Y/N are you okay. Oh my god hun. What happened" She was concerned. Scared even
"My dad. He tried to, h-he tried to. Cat he said if mom cant carry a baby then maybe I can. I- I got away before he could go far enough. Please don't make me go back" Cat threw arms around you. Holding you tight.
"I will never make you go back, Y/N. You will never go back there, I promise." She cried pushing your hair back.
"Lets get you cleaned up. Come on. Then tomorrow we're going shopping. You'll never go back there. For anything. I'll protect you forever y/n."
Present day
"Spence, she protected me from my own family. She bought me clothes and she fed me until I left for college. Why would she do this?" You tried to wrap your head around it all.
Catherine was your saving grace. You owed her your life, and now you had to betray her.
She betrayed you.
"God, she's so fucking stupid. She knows who I am and who I work for. Didn't she think she would be caught eventually?" You said getting out of the car. Spencer grabbed your hand interlacing his slender fingers with yours.
"She's cocky. That's the issue. She thought she wouldn't be caught and she probably didn't know that Montolo was caught. Or shes an independent contract and doesn't even know montolo." He was trying to be helpful. But he was right
Catherine was cocky. She was your entire life. That's why you guys worked so well. You werent super cocky, bold, but not cocky. Catherine was always flaunting herself around.
Spencer led you into his apartment. You wrapped your arms around yourself in a protective manner.
"I'm going to go grab some of your stuff so you don't have to leave. I don't want you alone. Is there anything specific you want me to grab?" You shook your head walking over to the couch.
Once the door was shut, you put your head in your hands. There wasn't anymore crying you could do. This was happening. This wasn't a dream.
You just stayed like that, deep breathing and trying not to vomit. Your mind racing at how you didn't know.
Catherine was your only family before the BAU. She held you through everything. She beat up your bullies, approved all your boyfriends, and you couldn't even count how many times she had said "if im not your maid of honor and then your little baby geniuses god-mother, im going to come for you." The memory felt like a knife to your heart.
You and her had plans to take over the world and she ruined them. Your sadness turning into anger.
Why Cat. I could've helped you. It was supposed to be us against the world.
You lifted your head as you heard Spencer walk through the front door. He carried a lot of clothes and all your toiletries.
"How are you feeling, babydoll." His voice full of worry.
"I'm angry, Reid. I'm so fucking angry. This wasn't how this was supposed to go." You shook your head.
"Life never goes how we expect it to y/n. But, it is up to us to decide how we chose to deal with it. It's going to be okay. I promise." He walked past you and into his room to put away your stuff.
You stood up, following him. You needed to get your mind off of Cat. You needed Reid and you needed him now.
You shut the door behind you, taking the clothes from him and throwing them in the corner of his room.
"Y/N? I was going to put those away for you." He looked confused.
You pulled him closer to you by his tie. "Take my mind off of this. Please." You begged. "Plus you said I was in for it when we got home. We're home."
"I don't think youre in a good frame of mind for this." You rolled your eyes
"Please Reid. Please. I need this." Again begging.
You knew you were in the right frame of mind. And if you werent, you didn't care. You needed this.
You closed the space between the two of you, pulling him into a rough kiss. Your lips moving feverishly against his.
"Are... you ... sure" he asked between kisses.
You pulled away looking annoyed. "Yes Spence. You have free reign."
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