BIKER WITH BENEFITS

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NIHAO, BONJOUR, HELLO

Xiao Zhan P.O.V

There are times when you want some things to not happen. But no matter how hard you try you just can't help it. You just can't get the wheel of time to go backwards right? In my three months stay and work in my dad's hospital there has been many times that I've hoped that people just wouldn't have to suffer so much. But I'm a doctor. I'm supposed to be strong. I'm supposed to be immune to seeing all these. But it still hurts. These people, they're someone's father, mother, friend, family. How could you just bear with it when your loved one is suffering? How could I bear with it? How could I? When A-Fei the little girl, that lively carefree little soul, was lying dead in front of my eyes.

On the operation table lies a little very fragile body sewed up after we failed to save her. Us three doctors standing at the side. For some reason, none of us want to go out and break the news that the person we tried to save died in our hands. Isn't it pathetic?

I feel like my heart is some sort of hard solid rock. It's weighing me down. Why do I feel like this?

The nurses that were finishing the rest of the things saw us out and we filed out to go to our own cabins. I just got a cabin of my own. When I entered the small cubicle I found a little cactus in a pot. It all came to me like a storm. How A-Fei said to take care of prickly because she's shy and when A-Fei has to stay at the hospital for too long no one will be there to take care of her. Prickly! I chuckle!

"I'll take care of prickly, I promise, A-Fei."

It's really painful right now. I get out of the sterile grubs I was wearing and change into my normal clothes. I always keep a set of casual outfit in my backpack. When I need it or when my formal outfit is not useful I just change into a casual outfit and go on with it. Today I do the same thing. I change into a casual faded jeans and a grey sweater.

I want to go to the bar right now. I need to forget this. I know I'm blaming myself. I know if it wasn't for me the surgery scheduled wouldn't have changed.

I take the rest of the day off. I don't have any more surgery today. And the rounds are off today because we were on surgery today. And that's kinda helping me today.

I enter the bar and a different atmosphere engulfs me. It's like a totally different world. Sitting on the bar stool in front of the barista and downing pints of beers one after the other it felt like forever. I started feeling a little bit dizzy. The sounds became blurry. I don't know what time is it when my phone rang.

"Hello?"

The opposite side was stunned for a few seconds. I don't know why! Because of my English? Or because I'm slurring? Or can they really hear me? But don't expect me to speak anything other than English tho!

"Hello! Anyone there?"

"Sean. Why are you drunk?" The voice is familiar! Isn't that Julian? My best friend!

"Julian. I'm not drunk. I'm just a bit tipsy."

"Then you're definitely drunk! Where are you now? Is there any barista there in front of you?" He tries to speak to me. But that's not gonna happen. I'm not going home yet.

"I'm not going home yet, Julian. I don't wanna go home." I keep whining! Why tho?

"Sean, get me the barista please will you?"

"NO." I tell at him! No. I yell at him!

But right when I was going to apologize someone snatched my phone away from my hand. "Hey!" I try to grab it back. But I kept holding air for a few tries and then gave up. "Give me that!" My head fell on the bar counter. It feels weird.

"Hello. Who is this? Are you disturbing my boyfriend?" Wait! What? Boyfriend?!! Who's that? I don't know the voice. I can see the barista standing in front of me. Then who took my phone. I see the barista indicating his finger, with an awkward smile on his face.

When I turn around I see a handsome face, high nose, pink lips. The Adam's apple was vibrating slightly by the way the gorgeous man is talking on the phone. My phone!

"Who are you? Why do you have my phone?" I take my phone away from him and try to talk. "Julian! Are still there buddy?"

"I am. And please let your boyfriend take care of you. I'll entrust you on him. Go home and then go to sleep. We talk tomorrow, okay? You have explanations to give! I'll go. Good night."

I slump on the bar counter and let the phone slide down from my ear. And then the man sitting by my side spoke in a beautiful voice in broken English.

"Why are you drinking your night away?" Well he's not bad. I look at him. Squint at him. Then I think. Why am I drinking so much? Even when I'm lightweight why am I here in a bar in the middle of night? Is it the middle of night? Oh A-Fei! She died!

"She's gone! Does she know that we couldn't help her? She didn't want to go right? I didn't want her gone either. I failed. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." I close my eyes. "Elle était si pure. Elle avait tellement de raisons de vivre! Why? Lu jie believed in me! Yu Bin ge believed in me! But I failed them all." I look towards the barista. Point a finger at him and demand a drink. "Barkeep. Get me another pint!"

"No, you switch to water right away." His English is so sexy! It makes me smile. It makes me want to listen to him.

I drink some water and sober up a bit. Just when I'm thinking of going back home, the man beside me offers me a ride. I don't want to go with him. But when I try to say no he just collects my things and takes me with him. Wait what!

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